JESSIKAH

i havent wrote  a journal in a very long time. there has been so much going on in my life. i havent been the best im kinda slipping again and i dont think i have ever hated myself as much as i do...

im feel pretty fucking pathetic right now.i always think about the worst at  night time when no one is home.my mom hates me right now cause im such a selfish little bitch and i just lefti feel like...

well update on my life.i currently live with my gf.i love itwe got a pet ferretshes a brat, her name is mira!but i love her stinky butt.i miss my family more than i ever thought i woould.it sucksmy...

latley things are so shakey.i wanna get out of here ( my cousins house)i cant wait to move in with my baby!!!:)this last weekend was so perfect i spentit all with herfrom friday night to monday...

i keep getting night mares, they are really bad. i feel bad cause last night i woke up my cousin for the 2 nd time by screaming:( it wasnt good.i misssss my girlfriend i ahvent seen her in a while...

so,  earlier i told u guys how happy i am. and its true i am happy with my girl friend. i am happy being here. but i also feel so lost and confused. i kinda feel alone especially at the moment.this...

so i live in north dakota now,and let me tell you , its nothing like southern californiaits so cold, and not busy at all.there is land everywhereu seee cows when u look out side of ur car window:)ppl...

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i am so happy, things are greathavent felt this way in a whilesmiles on my facedm

i fucking hate life, i am drunk off my ass, and im so tired of ppl being fake, i learned ppls true colors when i went to the hospital, they all left my life, took off, they are happy and i am here...