kayrl

mason came home over the weekend. it sucks having him here. i hate it at night especially! makes me feel like im 8 again. every time i hear someone in the hall my heart stops and i feel like i can't...

last weekend i had state drill team. we didn't do very good. we got a division 1 but didn't place. i guess getting a division 1 is ok, u have to get that to place so some teams didn't get a division...

life is going the same. eat, sleep, sex, school, sports, homework. that's my life, o it's pretty great. even the sex sucks ass. so im sorry for throwing a "pitty party" for myself, it shall never...

i don't even know y i try anymore. no one cares about me. not on DS and not at home. i bet i could come on here and write that im gonna kill myself tomorrow and no one would do anything or care....

i don't want to do this anymore. i hate being alone. i hate crying myself to sleep and wish someone were there to hold me. i hate that i have no one here. everyone i had graduated or left. i miss...

i think this will be my last journal entry for a while. i don't feel like talking anymore. i'll still come on but not as much. you guys are still more then welcome to write to me and i'll deff write...

halloween was yesterday, hope everyone had a good halloween! i went down to hang out with one of my friends and another friend came with me. i had fun, we alway's have fun together. we went to a...

hmm well life kind of sucks. i don't really know what to do. lately i've felt empty and depressed. i wish i could feel something other then pain and sadness. i wish i could feel happy, love,...

well so u know my friends i told you about, the one that might have a brain tumor? well she went and got her results on friday and she had a brain tumor. It's really small, not cancer, and not...

well i have a meeting with my counselor tomorrow at 8 in the morning. i hate it cuz all through the 2 weeks i have so much i could talk to her about but when my meeting comes up and it's like the day...

well today was interesting. i went and got on birth control today. it was ok untill i had to get a physical and then it i just wanted to leave. she did a breast exam on me and then she looked at my...

well so im talking to my friend amanda. she's the one that im really close to and that just moved out to LA to try acting and stuff. umm so it really bothers me but she's kind of got herself into...

i uploaded some pics from when i was lil and i need to choose one for my baby pic for school and idk what one to pick. so can you guys go look at em and let me know what one u like? thanks!

my weekend is going pretty good. it's long so that's awesome. i got out  early on friday and have no school monday so it's going pretty good. went to a party last night. that was fun but a lil weird...

well i had a meeting with my counselor today and that went pretty good. i like her alot so that's really good. we talked about like how the abuse has affected me. we talked about like what was on my...