i don't even know y i try anymore. no one cares about me. not on DS and not at home. i bet i could come on here and write that im gonna kill myself tomorrow and no one would do anything or care. that's how it feels like to me. i hate being a baby like this and freaking out and saying no one cares  but that's really how i feel and that's really how it seems. i wish i were able to kill myself because i would, but i can't, i can't hurt my family like that. it pisses me off that i can't because they have hurt me sooo much so y can't i hurt them!?!?