well i had a meeting with my counselor today and that went pretty good. i like her alot so that's really good. we talked about like how the abuse has affected me. we talked about like what was on my list and one of the things i wrote was sex. it was the last one on the list so we talked about that last. we talked about y i was having sex and how it made me feel and that like most victims either avoid sex totally or really engage in it and so we talked about that. the sex talk was prolly the hardest to talk about. well that and i also put keeping people at a distance and we talked about that and she asked the ? that like what would happen if i actually let people get close, and like y i keep people at a distance. that was kind of hard to actually say and talk about. it was a good session. she like has me write alot, i think i like that the most about it. i like to actually do something rather then just to sit there i think writing stuff down helps it actually process in my brain instead of it going in one ear and out the other.