Loved1
Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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Msg from R yesterday where he finally had something to say after a week of msgs. He said he is sorry he hurt me and he never stopped loving me, and that he went out and did stupid stupid things and...
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Sunday I missed the marathon AA meetings and dance because I was avoiding R, and he did leave a msg saying he was at the dance and maybe I'd answer my phone so we could talk. Last night I read in...
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For memorial weekend there are "alcathons" - marathon meetings - at the AA clubs, so I took in a few. It was nice. I ran into one of R's friends who told me he's back in the area where he had...
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5 msgs from R in 2 days. The last one he didn't seem to realize he was leaving it. I could hear him and a group of people having a conversation and hear him say he was going to give up for a...
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R left 3 messages yesterday after nearly 2 months since I'd seen him and a month and a half since our 1 conversation since.It's easier when he left me alone. I'm doing a 60 day "hetox" thanks to...
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Really not journaling much lately. Dealing with a lot of disappointment regarding the men who are paying me attention. It seems my "crushes" are inappropriate and those who show interest in me, I...
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I got a nice part time office job through the temp agency they want to become permanent. I am missing my noon meetings, the evening ones have less recovery and more BS in my opinion. Oh Well! ...
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I got to work one day this week as a background actor on a comedy in a mall. It was really nice to see some old aquaintances I have worked with years past, and to meet some people, do something...
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I've never gone this long without posting a journal here. Parents were on vacation for 2 weeks and I had a lot of solitude at home. I don't think I have heard from R though there were a lot of out...
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I went to a cool music festival yesterday and I'm really glad I went. Even though it was sold out I knew I'd find someone w/ a ticket. I walked around all day and stayed sober, and I got to see...
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2nd week off work, and another instructor called me today to ask me to fill in for her on her Friday class so she can attend the faculty meeting. I said I'd think about it, and get back to her...
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I went to an AA convention and attended some marathon AA and Al Anon meetings yesterday and today. Much needed. I keep to myself too much even in such an environment. I got a missed call from an...
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First week off school job - funny how distance creates more clarity. Heard from R last night, who says he didn't want to hurt me by not calling the last two weeks and also didn't want to hurt me by...
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I got a wonderful Thai massage Saturday - he does a great job, and it is a lot more affordable and better than at the hot springs spa. I really needed it, and I'm glad I went ahead and treated...
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My last night at work - tomorrow I come in the morning to work doing orientation for new students with my coworkers, who I had an interesting time doing "teamwork" with today. I think I'll try to...
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