Loved1
Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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My love addiction kicked in. Karaoke last night and I had sort of a flirty intention going out. I have not had a boyfriend in nearly 3 months, longer than we were together. Anyway and who was...
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Things are a little fussy at home and I am taking one step forward and one step back in my recovery in dealing with a codependent mom without adding my own codependency to the mix. Sis is t(hrough...
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I felt very tired this weekend and had some nightmares the last couple nights - they go hand in hand. I found myself sleeping in this AM. I don't need an alarm because I don't start work until...
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According to this book "It's called a breakup because it's broken" (Greg Behrendt) I did the 60 days of no contact "He-tox" with R. I completed it. The suggestions in the book and the insight I...
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Al Anon meeting last night and reading the stories about childhood stuff brings up a lot of pain. I had a friend from AA take my suggestion and show up there, it was nice. Having trouble letting...
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I felt a lot of stress listening to mom this a m. Yesterday I went to a new Al Anon and shared how in seeing her life is unmanageable in her untreated codependency / Al Anon I tend to have felt...
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Msg from R yesterday where he finally had something to say after a week of msgs. He said he is sorry he hurt me and he never stopped loving me, and that he went out and did stupid stupid things and...
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Sunday I missed the marathon AA meetings and dance because I was avoiding R, and he did leave a msg saying he was at the dance and maybe I'd answer my phone so we could talk. Last night I read in...
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For memorial weekend there are "alcathons" - marathon meetings - at the AA clubs, so I took in a few. It was nice. I ran into one of R's friends who told me he's back in the area where he had...
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5 msgs from R in 2 days. The last one he didn't seem to realize he was leaving it. I could hear him and a group of people having a conversation and hear him say he was going to give up for a...
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R left 3 messages yesterday after nearly 2 months since I'd seen him and a month and a half since our 1 conversation since.It's easier when he left me alone. I'm doing a 60 day "hetox" thanks to...
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Really not journaling much lately. Dealing with a lot of disappointment regarding the men who are paying me attention. It seems my "crushes" are inappropriate and those who show interest in me, I...
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I got a nice part time office job through the temp agency they want to become permanent. I am missing my noon meetings, the evening ones have less recovery and more BS in my opinion. Oh Well! ...
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I got to work one day this week as a background actor on a comedy in a mall. It was really nice to see some old aquaintances I have worked with years past, and to meet some people, do something...
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I've never gone this long without posting a journal here. Parents were on vacation for 2 weeks and I had a lot of solitude at home. I don't think I have heard from R though there were a lot of out...
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