I went to a cool music festival yesterday and I'm really glad I went. Even though it was sold out I knew I'd find someone w/ a ticket. I walked around all day and stayed sober, and I got to see Paul McCartney, Morrissey, Leonard Cohen, Black Keys, among others. I am feeling really down today. There was so much pot smoke in the air yesterday, everywhere. Even though I made attempts to not inhale near it, I smelled pot in my car today! It was that strong it must have gotten on me and rubbed off, and I have "pot radar" indented in my brain so that was just weird. I guess I'm dealing with so many losses. I heard from the sponsee I didn't think it was going to work out with and from her message she said she understood what I explained to her, and that she'd see me around. I'd said last time, that I thought I'd be a "half assed" sponsor and I didn't talk to my own sponsor a lot or see her regularly, and I guess this girl decided I wasn't for her. I am relieved but it still pissed me off because I realize I felt misunderstood, and I didn't think she was forthcoming, and ultimately I am a self centered alcoholic addict and I tend to forget people don't revolve their priorities or values around me. I am reading "Eat Pray Love" which is a nice distraction. I am taking parents to the airport tomorrow and they'll be gone 2 weeks. I know being at home with them more can be extremely challenging. I did get to make Greek food with dad this week which was fun. I haven't been to the gym in a week which is not good, but have been walking and doing regular yoga.
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