FallenAngel

Well, it's been a few weeks since I've written and figured it was time for an update.  Took a trip up to New Jersey to see my girlfriend.  Had a great time and go my first pedicure of the summer. ...

Feeling really lonely tonight.  Gene's birthday is coming up and it's already starting to make me feel more sad than I have been.  Watching TV just isn't what I feel I should be doing, but I don't...

I've finally come to the conclusion that I hate my job.  I'm so bored with it and it's driving me nuts.  Unfortunately, I haven't been able to find anything else yet so I guess I'm stuck where I am...

Yeah, it's Friday.  So looking forward to the weekend and some nice weather.  Going to get some yard work done finally.  Went to counseling last night and got a flat tire.  Had to pay someone to...

Oh how I wish it was Friday already!  Another boring day at work and it's driving me crazy.  It makes me so tired having nothing to do and still trying to look busy.  But I am thankful that at...

What a boring day at work I had today.  Trying to look busy is hard and I can only surf the net so much.  Doing better today.  Still tired all the time, but it's getting better.   Called the...

Was harder than the first. Stayed in bed most of Saturday. Paul came over on Sunday and spent a few hours with me to help me get through and then I just went to back bed and slept as much as I...

Well, made it through another day.  That's about all I can say about my life right now--day by day.  Don't know how I'm going to make it through the weekend.  The weather is supposed to be cold...

Oh god, how I miss Gene.  Somedays I still can't believe he's gone.  It's so hard coming home to this empty house.  Coming up on the two year anniversary and I'm falling apart.  Remembering the...

Well, I had a total meltdown yesterday.  Cried and cried and never got out of bed until 4 in the afternoon.  It was exhausting and I ended up going back to bed before 8 last night.  Woke up...

Everytime I think of all the memories Gene and I had together I block them out of my mind so as not to become overwhelmed by sadness and tears.  Now I'm afraid of forgetting all the great times we...

Woke up crying this morning and had to force myself into work.  The days are long and the nights are lonely.  Oh how I miss Gene so much.  Can't believe it will be two year's this month, it feels...

Feeling terribly lonely today and don't know what to do about it.  It's raining here or else I'd go out walking which would probably make me feel better.  Cleaning just doesn't do the same as...

Feeling rather blue today.  It's cloudy here and we're supposed to get rain.  Hope it's just the weather making me blue.  But I miss Gene so much today.  I dream of him often and wake up feeling...

Well, mom died on January 17th, 2011 around 8:30 p.m.  She had been sick for some time but it still hurts.  I still haven't processed her death yet.  I'm going to miss her.