FallenAngel

OK.  I'm at work and I'm about to totally lose it.  What am I supposed to do?  I feel so helpless and out of control sometimes.  I can't just leave and I don't feel like I can stay....

It's 5 am and I've been up since 3:30 a.m.  Just can't seem to sleep tonight.  I made it through my first day back to work and only broke down crying once.  Unfortunately, I'm not that busy and...

OK.  I made it through six hours at work today and only broke down crying once.  I'm so proud of myself for making it that long.  I'm also very grateful today for the time Gene and I had...

How in the world am I supposed to go on.  I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow and I can't even make it through the next five minutes.  I've never experienced such a deep and overwhelming ache...

I'm so angry.  Why was Gene taken from me so young and so suddenly.  He was my world and now he's gone.  Just getting up in the morning is a struggle for me right now.  I'm supposed to go back to...

It's raining here this morning and kind of gloomy.  In some ways, it's comforting.  I miss Gene so much.  Each day I wake up and the reality of his loss hits me so hard I can barely take the...

I am feeling so lost.  My husband died March 27, 2009, from a massive heart attack.  He was the love of my life and I miss him all the way down to my soul.  I've been crying all the time and have...

It's been a trying day.  I had the day off from work for Veteran's Day and have been trying to force my self to do SOMETHING other than lying around feeling anxious and depressed.  I managed to get...

Oh, how I'm missing Gene this morning.  Crying and crying, it just doesn't stop.  So much going on and the one strength in my life gone forever.  I just want to curl up in bed and cry my eyes...

I got laid off from work on Thursday.  Reduction in force they called it.  I knew it was coming but didn't really think it would be so soon.  I was just starting to get busy and, bam, came out of...

Today is one of those days when I'm so tired of being sad from missing Gene so much that I don't know how much more I can take.  If it weren't for my son, I don't know what I would do.  I've been...

Someone asked me this question today.  All I could say was that I wasn't ready and don't know that I ever will be.  I'm still married in my mind.  The love of my life may be gone, but he still...

The only thing good I can say about my job this week is that I'm thankful I have a job to go to.  I am so bored I've been playing card games all morning and even that's getting old.  When I get...

Having a Gene moment right now.  Oh how I miss him so much. 

After two years, I still feel like I'm just going through the motions of life.  I have no ambition to do anything around the house and it still feels so overwhelming.  I don't know that I will ever...