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- We are all here because something bad happened...we lost our soul mates. Just about an hour ago I was reading the news, and the remains of a little girl who had gone missing from a small town in Alberta had been found, and there is an individual in...
- This afternoon I passed out for about half an hour...and I dreamed that I was walking down the street toward the skytrain station, and that my phone rang. When I answered it, it was my husband saying..'Why haven't you come to get me from the...
- I have been trying to clean the house little by little...I can't believe how badly I've let it go to shit over the past 6 months...I took out several bags of garbage yesterday, and I will have a bunch more ready to go tonight. I don't know where...
- I have a missed call on my log that I traced to the hospital where my husband spent some of his last days before being transferred to a hospice. The problem is, when I tried to call it, it doesn't lead to any specific department, and therefore, I...
- I feel like I'm at the end of my rope here...I can't stop missing my husband, I keep what if-ing and wishing he was here...wishing I would wake up from this supposed 'nightmare'...wishing it was all a mistake..this weekend was hard...a wind storm...
- March 19th I lost the love of my life. Since then, I have been a basket case...time may heal for some, but for me, it just gets worse. I keep going back to the first couple of weeks he was in the hospital, and asking myself why I didn't take him...
- I had that scripture tattooed to my forearm under my husband's name about 3 weeks after he died. That scripture stood out in my mind since the day we were married. It was one of his favorites. And I believe it to be true...I feel like only half a...
- Everything has gone completely fubar in our lives...in addition to my husband being gone, the house is a mess, my son has no day program and all the hard work we did over the years with getting him into a good sleeping pattern has gone to shit..it's...
- Today my son and I went to the clinic to refill meds. Every time I go there I feel very sad, because the three of us used to go once a month and see the doctor at the same time, basically to save time. On the way down there, I ran into an old...
- Tomorrow marks 22 years since I met Tom at Second Beach. I was thinking of taking my son down there, but I'm not sure if I can handle it...big trigger...my husband should have been here...we should be going together, as a family...
- Every morning since my husband passed away, I wake up hoping it's all a long vivid nightmare...but it never is. So I close my eyes again and try to fall back to sleep. I'm just sick and tired of waking up...period. To make matter worse, my son,...
- I was doing a little better today, until a few moments ago when that stupid dog food commercial came on...the one with the elderly man and his dog who go to visit his wife's gravesite? When will this end? I'm crying over commercials now..
- Since my husband passed in March, I have been absolutely devastated, and just have this feeling of utter hopelessness...I pray to God every day to bring him back to me...and today, as I was walking around, trying to clear my head, I was thinking...
- Today would have been my husband's 60th birthday. As I lit a candle and placed it on his memorial in the living room, I thought about how I wish we were sitting together, rehashing memories, maybe eating cake and celebrating...and how I wish I was...
- Sunday would have been my husband's 60th birthday. Today I read an article about the world's oldest woman dying at 116...it occurred to me that she lived nearly twice as long as my husband, and I couldn't help thinking 'why'? Why do some people...