No I do not think you are going crazy. You as you said are devastated and grieving for probably the most important person in your life. You have your Son who depends on you and from what you have said is a high needs individual. You my Dear are dealing with a lot!! However we must face reality. I wish with all my heart a prayer to God would bring back our loved ones. But it will not happen. Not ever. Perhaps the song was a sign. Though I am not familiar with the words. Your gut feeling will give you your answer. I wish I could say a magic word to make you feel better but I can send you prayer. That you will find comfort and peace. I am so sorry you are hurting so much. You are just overwhelmed with grief. Diane

You're not going crazy, I know it is strange how some things happen that reminds us of just the most relavent things we have had on our minds. Perhaps it is a sign, I don't know. Just take it as you want it and don't think of it as being crazy. We are going thru alot and probably will be for awhile. You just go on and know that if you are crazy then you are not alone, I must be too.! I think the emptyness will never go away, the aloneness, and just missing the way things were. We will be okay I think. It's just that we know we can never have what we once had and that is tough to live with ! Sending you a big hug and you are in my thoughts.

Ruthann

The only thing "crazy" is this grief journey itself. It causes us to feel that we are crazy at times for sure. Just know that you are not alone and you are not crazy. BTW, I love that song. So sorry you are hurting so much. Time, my dear (and I know you are sick of hearing that) . . it's the only thing standing between you and better days ahead. It takes time to heal and we are all different. Allow your grief and keep it in baby steps, one day at a time. Hugs, D

I hope you are doing better today, I remember how overwhelming those first months can be and it feels like you are losing your mind. It will get better and at some point you learn to live with the loss. Do what you can to get through the grief spells a long walk or I would go for long bike rides. Lets not rule out the bunny suit, I found hopping around the yard in a bunny suit can take your mind off of grief. Just make sure you can hop faster than the men in white coats.

Music has a way of triggering emotions, certain songs are going to bring out memories or just the words are going to trigger emotion. I thought I would never be able to listen to Let it Be without crying the first year after I lost my wife, but I hear it now and Im ok.
Heres a prayer I found on another DS board that may help: http://www.dailystrength.org/groups/dont-give-up/discussions/messages/20643817

I pray you find some peace.

Hugs,
Ron

Wendi - you're quite sane. It's my belief (and mine only, based on nothing but my own thoughts) - that in the beginning of grief, when we've first lost a loved one, that there's a thinner line between where we are and where they are. Maybe it's a coincidence that a song that means so much comes on just when I need it, or I just happen to crest the dune and see two dolphins playing in the waves, or....so many other things - I have to believe that there's something after death. A communication, an unspoken sense of love still there. It still happens, after almost 7 years. And it gives me comfort. Hugs, Marsha

No, you are not crazy. I think we all have experienced things that are hard to explain; things that only we and our beloved shared or would know. It's gotten to the point that I tell people, "hey, this is MY crazy and right now I need to be like this to get through this thing". Examples I give you regarding that would be talking to his pictures, taking a photo of us to and from work each day so that it doesn't stay all night in the office where it's dark and cold; seeing bunny rabbits and calling them his name convinced that the one that keeps showing up at my house is him.....(okay.....maybe I am a little nuts) danggit 'bunny nose' was a nickname for him. But the point is that is how we deal. People who haven't experienced this don't understand. I posted something early on similar to your concerns and I received the most heartwarming replies from this community. You are in good company, dear. People here understand. You just keep being you. Sending you big hugs. -Becca