Oh honey, I miss my Bob every second too! We two are one! But now that he is passed on to be with the Lord, I sense my oneness with Jesus more than ever before! He is with me now, comforting me and moving me along. His plan for my life is in His hands. I will see my Bob again, this gives me great joy! Cling to the Lord at this time of your life, He loves you so much! He will comfort you too!
Loves......Karla

Going from a US to a ME is something I hate. We got married young and had kids and built a life. He came to me with nothing but a bag full of clothes and we struggled and worked hard to get to where we are today. I am so proud of that. I just wish I would have told him more how much he was appreciated and loved. It never seems like enough once they are gone. And for me the regrets are huge. So many things left unsaid and undone. I am a talker yet there are so many things I didn't tell him the way I should have. I miss him so much and more every day. I ask for signs and I pray that he hears me. I too am only half of who I used to be. I didn't know you could miss someone so much. I don't believe that things get better how could they when our lives have changed so much. Hang in there lets all stick together

You are a beautiful writer! I get what you are saying exactly. I felt that same oneness with my husband, that is now only half-ness. It's so hard to keep on standing upright with this burden we are carrying.

Your posting touched my heart. We became one in our heart and life. I felt like half of me died with him and my total life had ended, leaving an empty shell here to exist. The good news is that we will be joined again in spirit and part of him remains in you. The hope eludes you now, far from sight, but you can and will continue to bless others as you learned with him. Sharon

Wendi,
I have felt your desperation...I can't add anything to Sharon's post,
It just says it all,
Sending you love...Sandra

Everyone that posted about two shall become one are so right on
to the feelings of losing our loved one. Just today like LMJ90 posted, I was asking myself "Why didn't I say this or ask this." But looking back, we were in such shock about knowing his time was short and you seem to go into a zone that is hard to talk about death or other things, because they so are emotional.

I know that I have said before that I know we will be together some day, but I wanted more of him on this earth & it won't be the same when we do meet again.

Oh Wendi . . I have been thinking of you much lately as I haven't seen you on the main board. So glad to hear that you are somewhat at peace and this finds you with a positive attitude toward the future. Baby steps . . . and eventually you will see from the top of the Mount. Thinking of you always. xo, D

almost 5 months for me too and my struggle is very much at the same point at yours. I feel such privledge that he was mine at least for at time. That in the uniqueness that he was, he chose to spend his time with me. I hope that somewhere he knows how i feel. I would like to think my future holds more than my present and that the best has not passed me by.

Wendi we have been blessed to have shared such a deep love for our spouses. Jeanne and I lived our lives as the two have become one and since that can only happen with our spirit and souls I believe that even though we are not physically together our souls are still one and our love continues on and someday if I don't screw up we will meet again. I know she is watching over me just like a moment doesn't go by that I don't think of her.

Thank You for posting...I often think of the vows we took on the day we married and do find comfort in the thought that despite the trials and heartaches we did live up to those vows.

It is new and raw for me. My husband passed away just 10 days ago. In 2008 he suffered a fall and broke his neck. As a result he was quadriplegic. I retired in order to assist with bathing and dressing him each day. He went through 7 weeks of rehab and remarkably was able to go back to the job he loved for another 7 years.
He fell from his wheelchair on Aug 1 and suffered 2 broken legs. He was coming along very well and we were talking about his coming home. Sometime early Sat morning he threw a blood clot that travelled to his heart and he was gone.
I find comfort in knowing that he died in his sleep but the pain of missing his physical presence is overwhelming. Our 24 years together were the best of my life. We lived all the vows of "better or worse, richer or poorer,,sickness and health until death. I know that I am not alone in this sad journey. Comfort and prayers to all who walk along in my shoes.