wendimac

Last night I dreamed of my husband and son.  While the dream was kind of weird, they were both in it...healthy, younger, happy.  Then I woke up.  I picked up my son's remains today.  As the...

Today marks 2 weeks since I lost my precious son.  In some ways, it feels like 2 days, and in others, 2 years.  Time has a way of becoming irrelevant.  I had a short dream this morning...my mom...

It's been a week since I lost my son, and a year and 2 weeks since I lost my husband.  Jeffrey's funeral is on Tuesday, and I am dreading having to face the fact that he is gone, at only 20 years...

My feelings summed up in that one word.     

Life Sucks.  I just want my husband back.     

Today marks 15 weeks since I lost my soulmate...tomorrow will mark exactly 3 calendar months, and Sunday would have been his 60th birthday.  I am still not processing the fact that he is gone and...

I can't believe he's really gone...at least, physically.  While I have had signs from him, its not the same as having him here in person...while I can go longer between crying episodes, I still miss...

I've been bombarded with memories of the past 22 years, memories of times that seem so far away now...memories that I cherish, but wish were not in the past...I wish I could get into a time machine...

Today was hard.  I kept going over everything wishing he was still alive, wishing so bad he was still alive.  I have some social worker coming over tomorrow to set up home support for my son, which...

Just heard another siren.  I live on a busy street, between the police detachment and the hospital...every time I hear a siren, especially an ambulance, I wonder if someone is about to have their...

Five Thursdays ago I lost my love.  I feel worse than ever.     

Today as Jeff and I walked up toward the DQ, I saw a busker in front of the Save On...I was doing okay until then, when I suddenly teared up...Tom was a busker for 30 years, and it brought back...

I keep going over the events preceding Tom's death and wonder what I could have done differently.  While I realize that nothing will bring him back, I keep thinking I should have tried to take him...

It's now been 3 weeks since Tom passed away.  I have been able to function somewhat better between crying fits. I miss him so much, I can't stand it. Yesterday morning, I was standing in the...

Last night I dreamed about tom...twice.  The first time, I woke up and he was sitting next to me.  I sat up, and said 'Thank God it was a nightmare'...then I turned around, and his ashes were still...