FindingKatB
Status: Life is a war, so choose your battles carefully...
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- I don't know how to handle this insomnia, this hypervigilance, this damn thing I call c-ptsd. I dread the moment I wake up in the morning because I wake up around 2, 3 or even 4pm and I don't know what to do during the rest of the day. I am floating...
- I am probably in the fight or flight mode as I write. About two hours ago, there was a major domestic violence dispute my brother and his current gf. I was not in the living room where it happened; I was in my bedroom. As the thump and yells...
- Yesterday was a really bad day for my ptsd. Really bad. I was in and out of sleep when I was hearing my brother and his current gf arguing. This wasn't just plain verbal dispute. It was full-on threats, verbal arguments, ultimatums and...
- As I am starting to do things for myself, I find myself stuck. Something immediately stops me and I become frozen, literally frozen. I recently received my health insurance. Now, since I have received it, there is soooooo much that I can think of...
- I've hit a wall,figuratively speaking. I have so much pent-up anger that so am just scared of what I can do to myself or others. I think about this complex ptsd and its just that: it's too damn fucking complex for me right now! I don't think I have...
- The subject is self-explanatory. I don't know how to put it in other words or how to write it out. As I write right now, i am really tired of feeling this way. Lately, due to my chronic insomnia and depression, it's a lingering emotion that I can't...
- For about the entire month of September, i have seen myself go into this depression mode that i have difficulty separating it from ptsd. I don't know if you know, but i have been diagnosed with chronic ptsd this year but i have felt that i have had...
- The last couple of weeks have been draining and exhausting. At the core of things, my insomnia has become worse as it has escalated to later times in the day. I sleep late, but now i am sleeping between 6-7am and i wake up late in the day. I figure...
- Lately, my insomnia has become worse. Instead of sleeping like the usual time like 3 or 4, i have started to sleep around 7 or 8am. Instead of my getting little sleep,i am sleeping a lot more than usual. At times, i may not sleep much but lately,...
- I don't know about you guys, but I start to feel extremely guilty when i haven't gone to church service. The thought that when i would go, i feel that all eyes will be on me and that i haven't done right. I know i need to be gentle on myself, but...
- Last night, my brother's gf was having contractions so she went to the hospital. Not too long, about 3 hrs ago, she gave birth to my newborn niece.Since my father told me that, i have new anxieties and fears for the life of my newborn niece. I have...
- Have you guys ever gone on fb just to feel only worse about yourself? You see your friends and their statuses and where they are in life and you just feel miserable about yours?Tonight i had that feeling. I couldn't help but look and see and read....
- I am kind of freaking out right now. These past couple of days I have been really lethargic and not wanting to do anything, besides the usual. But right now, i feel like i am not here and not supposed to belong here. My emotions do not match up with...
- I have a question: what do you guys think of weed? Ever since i was in my teenage years, my brother has always had a terrible addiction to marijuana. I have been recently diagnosed with Complex- PTSD. A part of my childhood has been mostly affected...
- Today was an overwhelming anxious day for me as I was in school, dealing with some issues of financial aid. The thought and the presence of being in school made me feel guilt and shame due to my leaving it...Anyways, not too long ago I went into the...