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- TRIGGER WARNINGI got my bills paid today, so I feel a sense of accomplishment,. Yet I've had a lot of static in the brain and feelings though, today. I've been triggery and flashback prone, and have caught myself reliving a few trauma incidents...
- Good night everybody. I'm just extra grateful for this DS PTSD group tonight. Thought I'd go ahead and say so. You do me lots of good, and I wish you well in return.
- I had a great dream that my suicide prevention case from 1988, KW, celebrated being alive now, in 2014. He lives on the West Coast now (I live in the East), and emailed me a couple of times recently. Nice. It was a happy dream, and I woke up...
- 2 weeks ago, I went on a visit out of town to a friend's house and got triggered while I was there. The usual thing--I met someone who reminded me of my mother and said something insensitive like she would have said, which was usually followed by...
- Wow, have I been a windbag lately. My posts hove gotten LLOOOONNNG, I've noticed. Seems like once in a while things from therapy come pouring out. Does that happen to you--the length of your posts wax and wane in cycles? What kind of cycles? ...
- This is NOT a crisis question. I'm not feeling suicidal, nor am I at present helping anyone who is. That's really why I'm asking. When I was a hospital chaplain 2001-2010, the most frequent 2 topics that came up when there was a suicidal patient...
- I've got 2 more years until tenure at the ripe age of 58. I was laid off 3 years ago after working for a year at a college that had budget problems due to the 2008 recession. So until tenure guarantees me work, I'm on a year to year contract. ...
- Despite all, I got to visit friends in Minneapolis! I got not just out of the house but out of TOWN! It was for 3 nights. I visited a couple I've been friends with since 1979. My friends know about my health issue--she is a nurse, in fact. So I...
- I woke up with bad chronic kidney disease (CKD) pain today. Feels like having been severely kidney punched many times in a boxing match. Food didn't help. Thought giving a friend a ride to the train station would help, getting out and doing adn...
- I was at my last job for only 1 year due to a health crash. So I'm really glad I've been teaching where I am for 3 years now. In this system that means 2 more years until tenure and job security.Until then, for insurance, so to speak, I apply to...
- I like my solitary life a LOT. Going to teach and coming home to my solo castle is just the right balance of things for me 9 months a year.But there's a point in the summer when school's last year is a little too far behind us and the next year's...
- I'm going through lots of doctors' appointments for health so I'd prefer to focus on that right now. But my boss told me today enrollment's down 20% at my community college. 2 of the 5 classes I'm supposed to teach starting August are in danger of...
- Sorry to post twice in one evening. I apologize up front.The thing is, I explained in a long thread a couple of weeks ago that I'd be having lots of doctors' appointments this summer. My kidney disease progressed, so I have to go to doctors a lot,...
- I spoke yesterday about PTSD at a church. About getting to the point that you forgive your abusers so you don't spend your life hating them like they deserve. After the service a very well dressed, thirty something well spoken young woman who told...
- If you've been to a school reunion or seen the movie The Big Chill, you know one of the temptations in life is to compare your life with your classmates' lives. It's a bad idea, especially if your career has had setbacks due to interruptions like...