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- Can we ever hope too much?I love Buddhist meditation because it's done so much to calm my PTSD anxiety for years now. It's given me lots of hope, and I thought we could never have enough of hope. But I went to a lecture by a Buddhist nun and...
- Today my friend arrived from the US. He went with me to the spot where I was car bombed, and was very kind to witness my story. It is a real privilege to do exposure therapy with an on site witness to validate you.Wow, what a blessing.Be well,...
- Oddly, it's the evening of my first day in Uruguay 6,000 miles away and from the USA one of my abusers sent me an email stalking me using a third party email address. For 4 years now I've refused contact from them since after trying reconcile for 10...
- Wow, was it a long trip. I left the house for the airport at 6am on Monday, and arrived at my hotel in Uruguay, by coincidence, at exactly 6am on Tuesday. Many flights, airports, and connections in between. Uruguay is far away.I already visited...
- Monday my own department's chair went to my college VP to reconsider her July 16h support in writing for my trip to Uruguay to a university conference next week.. With help and support from here at DS PTSD, I withstood the 11th hour idea that my...
- to my trip back to where I got PTSD in Uruguay. Last year I stood at the street corner where my car was bombed with me in it, and it was an empowering moment. It really helped with my fearful flashbacks of that blast that shattered my childhood...
- My trip to Uruguay is a week from tomorrow. That's also the day school starts. My boss ok'd it on July 16 because I'm going to a conference.Now as school's about to start and it's getting real, she's sent me an email backtracking. She's going to...
- I haven't missed a day on DS PTSD in 2 years, but I'm about to possibly give myself a day off from the boards tomorrow. I might check in briefly, but I've got to get on the road. I'm going to see the Flaming Lips in concert at an outdoor rock...
- Since many of us have been grieving his loss here at DS PTSD, I thought I'd share info his widow released today via NPR about his death. Apparently, in addition to dealing with addiction and depression, Robin Williams had Parkinson's Disease.I know...
- It is for me, as a community college teacher. Big change, good because it ends my isolation, bad because it brings on stress. Just trying to look at it as good stress, not bad PTSD stress.Anybody else going back to school, whether as student or...
- Today I was minding my own business driving to the grocery store here in my town in the USA. Then National Public Radio ran a news story that triggered me about my South American past. Here's the print headline version."Grandmothers' president...
- Dear DS PTSD Friends,Last July 2013 I reported daily back to DS PTSD from my South American hometown on a visit back. I went there for exposure therapy. After years of planning to do it with my therapist, I finally visited1. the place where my...
- It's official: at the end of this month I'm going back to Uruguay to do some exposure therapy. My undergrad college roomie P is going with me! I had just come from high school in Uruguay's war to college with P when we met, so it means a lot.I've...
- I was estranged from my abusive family from 1992-2000. From 2000-2010 I reconciled with my family, during which time I nursed my mom through years of cancer treatment until it went into remission. After more violence at a family Christmas I've been...
- I need to teach at the community college to support myself. I have the good sense to know to be grateful I can work. I lost a better paying college teaching job in 2011 due to PTSD and the onset of Chronic Kidney Disease that took me off all of my...