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- Ever get tired of being tired? It's just the end of my first week back teaching school, something I have only been physically able to do since 2011 now. I love my job, but it takes a lot to balance PTSD and the demands of work.So I work with my...
- Tomorrow school starts. My job survived the enrollment crash at my community college, though I had half my classes canceled. I got another batch and had to scramble all week to get lessons together for them. I only slept 3 hours last night,...
- I posted this under arfie's "IT" thread, and then thought it might deserve its own thread." "There's an African folk tale of the monkey and the banana. A monkey was sneaking into a village stealing, and they couldn't catch him. So they buried a...
- I heard on National Public Radio in my car today that the US soldier who killed 16 Afghan people spoke in court today to try to explain why he did it. He pleaded guilty so he wouldnt get capital punishment and will serve life in prison instead.The...
- Last night my boss at the college told me that, with only 1 week until school started, enrollment is down at my college 17%. Half of the classes I was ready to teach were canceled due to low enrollment. It's happening to professors all over the...
- I'm recovering, but refilling the wrong kind of diabetes meds gave me blood sugar problems, leading to insomnia, leading to daytime flashbacks. The right meds refill's here and in a couple of days I'll be stabilized again.Meanwhile, at this...
- Hi everybody. I teach college. My PTSD comes into play every time I end the school year and am more isolated. Then it comes into play again when I've gotten used to that over the summer. I go back to being around so many people again and in...
- I'm back from a great trip back to where I got PTSD, and with your support here, face down some trauma demons I never thought I could confront. I didn't do it alone. Thanks for being with me.Back here now, I have renewed motivation for how we...
- I did it! I visited my old school today, the haunt from which the ghosts of my PTSD by molestation as a child emerged. Thanks for the support I received to make the visit. It went really well. I had to meet the principal. Still felts like going...
- My thanks to all wholl expressed their support for this exposure therapy trip Ive made to the sites of my trauma that gave me PTSD down here in South America. Ive got one more trauma visit to make to the site of my childhood school Monday, the...
- *Trigger Alert*OK, my visit back to my old battlefields where I got PTSD in 6 years of combat has really gone well. I've only been triggered a couple of times by a motorbike backfiring. Like gunfire in the old days on these old streets.But today I...
- As many of you know, I'm writing from the place that was my war zone in the 1970s, where we had urban guerrilla warfare for 6 years. I revisit here as part of my work with my therapist for healing--literally on my healing journey. Coincidentally,...
- I had a horrible night of nightmares last night for the first time in a year. It happens, but I bring it here because of what triggered it. I teach at a community college, and a state university an hour away approached me to take a job there with...
- As the 4th of July went by, a sensitive and kind member here posted a topic about how fireworks and PTSD interact that led me to some good reflection.Now it led me to notice that sometimes I have a sensitive response from my PTSD to video games. I...
- I'm getting ready to spend 3 weeks in winter starting Tuesday. I'll be flying 7,000 miles to the battlefield in South America where I survived the Dirty War in the 1970s. I barely go out of my house but once every 3 days, and now I'm going on this...