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- One of the difficult things about having PTSD as an anxiety disorder is never feeling at rest, at peace, "at home" in the world.Once in a while I dream that feeling. I did so last night. In my case, if you've read past postings of mine, that...
- Since I got news that there will be ultrasounds and such for kidney disease for me all summer, I'm preparing for the summer's long haul and how to be patient with it step by step. I believe patience doesn't just come to us. I believe we cultivate...
- Somebody in my bad news thread had said it could be worse, and I agreed, not imagining how quickly and completely that would happen today. My doctor's appointment today was tough. On the good side, guess what? My new doctor is Latino. No offense...
- Hey, everybody. Sorry I haven't had time to respond to everyone's posted replies to my thread about how I feel about kidney disease and my future plans and all. I'm grateful for how everyone has engaged in conversation with me after I opened up...
- In writing in my Bad News thread, people were so generous to offer support. I talked there about processing this bad news I just got about my kidney disease. I realized how it is that I have built this anti-suicide plan in my PTSD recovery life,...
- I did my quarterly blood tests today and got an immediate call back from my doctor saying my kidney disease has advanced some more. :-(And things PTSD-wise had been going so well........muji
- In their dreams?It was really good for me.I did last night. I woke up very satisfied by getting to have my say at last. In my dream, I had my abuser cornered in a church in front of a crowd of witnesses. I guess it was a church because it was one...
- Hey, everybody, I'm coming up on another DS PTSD birthday in the next couple of weeks, my second one. I couldn't wait to say how grateful I am to everybody here. You make this such a safe and healing place for me day after day. Another school...
- In response to some of the pain expressed by us on DS PTSD these days, I figured I would fess up to something that helps me a little with mine. I keep my guitar handy by my couch, and when PTSD overwhelms me, I play this song on the guitar and sing...
- For me with PTSD, continuity has been a challenge in my life. I've moved lots of times, changed jobs lots of times, and had lots of relationships. Life has sometimes seemed to be a series of temporary coping strategies patched together one after...
- My first semester of teaching without PTSD meds due to kidney failure I missed 6 sick days. I just couldn't do it sometimes. My boss was not pleased. She sent me a disability person from HR as a warning to interrogate me about what was wrong with...
- I teach a psych class at a community college. I only have a master's degree in the subject, but sometimes students drop by my office to talk about some deep things, and I listen. If need be, I refer them to a counselor.Today a student came by...
- An old friend spoke at one of the churches where I've given talks about PTSD this year. She invited me to come hear her in support. It was an awesome talk she gave. Afterwards, I was really surprised at how nice those church folks were to me. ...
- I just got back from my new doctor's appointment. My kidney illness needs more attention. However..............REALLY GOOD NEWS: my PTSD symptoms are getting better!!!!! Can you believe that? I've been diagnosed with PTSD since 1995, and it's...
- I have kidney disease related to PTSD because 4 years ago I had a doc overprescribe high dosages of meds that caused permanent kidney damage. It helped me short term with my own PTSD symptoms as I worked with trauma victims in the ER as a hospital...