Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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mujicaptsd
I've got 2 more years until tenure at the ripe age of 58. I was laid off 3 years ago after working for a year at a college that had budget problems due to the 2008 recession. So until tenure guarantees me work, I'm on a year to year contract. That means that in the summer I apply to other jobs just for "insurance" in case last hired first fired happens to me again.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to get to stay teaching at the college where I am 2014-2015. Still, on Wednesday I have to follow through with one of my other applications at another college. I'm trying to get myself in an interview frame of mind. Interviews usually bring up self-esteem issues for me and I don't sell myself as well as I might. I have to tell myself it's just nice being chosen for an interview in the first place and be grateful rather than intimidated.
Part of me, though, resents that I have had such ups and downs with PTSD in my career that now here I am doing this at my age when most people who are interviewing are 30 years old or so.
I don't want to carry that resentment into the interview with me. Just the kind of positivity we grow here at DS PTSD. Wish me luck, please.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to get to stay teaching at the college where I am 2014-2015. Still, on Wednesday I have to follow through with one of my other applications at another college. I'm trying to get myself in an interview frame of mind. Interviews usually bring up self-esteem issues for me and I don't sell myself as well as I might. I have to tell myself it's just nice being chosen for an interview in the first place and be grateful rather than intimidated.
Part of me, though, resents that I have had such ups and downs with PTSD in my career that now here I am doing this at my age when most people who are interviewing are 30 years old or so.
I don't want to carry that resentment into the interview with me. Just the kind of positivity we grow here at DS PTSD. Wish me luck, please.
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My advice is think of someone smarter than you...then do what you think he would do. It works for me.
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Relax and flow with it, muji. Whatever the end result, may it bring you many smiles.
Yes, I think it's the way to think that you being called for an interview is a testament to your qualifications.
Let them decide if you are what they need. And you decide if they are what you want.
Be confident. You've told so many stories on here of how smart and sensitive you are in the classroom. Don't be afraid to toot that horn!
I was filler. They had an inside candidate like the time I interviewed in Las Vegas years ago. I was early to the interview, and they sat me right outside the closed interview room door to wait my turn. Even though the door was closed, I could hear what was being said inside the room clearly. Since I was seated there by my hosts, I wasn't guilty of eavesdropping, either.
I heard them negotiating actual salary figures in detail with the interviewee before me, meaning she was their choice. When she came out of the room after the interview, she greeted the outer office secretaries by their first names in front of me, too, and visited with them as old friends. It was clear what was up.
Knowing that, I was more relaxed in the interview myself when it became my turn. I get self-conscious under the stress of an interview, so I stutter and chatter and lose my train of thought under pressure. I have another interview coming up, so once I knew I wasn't their choice, I tested out my self confidence in my sales pitch on them. You all had encouraged me to sell myself and PTSD be damned, so I did. Barring one exchange where I didn't understand the question at first and had to have a second go at answering it, I delivered my sales pitch pretty well.
Now to wait until the next interviewers call back with details of next week when I go there to interview. In the meantime, time for this geezer on the job prowl to rest up.
I dealt with the high stress of today's interview pretty well, I think. My health held up today and PTSD didn't turn me into stuttering nervousness because yesterday, the day before the interview, I just cancelled all previously planned activities. Instead, I had a rest up day. I need to remember to do that every time I face a big day like this from now on--to have a rest day before the interview day and a rest day after the interview day, too.
I'm grateful to everybody for all the support, encouraging me so I'd give it my all. Even though there was an insider candidate for this job and I was filler, I gave it the good hard sell and went all out. That still made it a proper dress rehearsal for that next interview that will probably happen next week.
Sometimes after an interview's stress the stress alone itself will trigger me and I'll spend time dissociating or having flashbacks. Just not being quite myself, unable to come down from the experience. I'm not feeling that this time, and feeling more normal--which is big for me.
Thanks, everybody. I wouldn't go all out and sell myself like this if not for your encouraging support to leave all I have to give it out on the field in the game, so to speak, regardless of the outcome. Thanks. Truly. I have no regrets this way and by overcoming my shyness from my fear that my PTSD will show in an interview, chances are better than one of these times something good is going to happen.
Be well, everybody.
We'll be here for you if that turns out to be true for you this time, but... You certainly did your prep work. Glad it all worked out for you, even if it was just a political ploy on the part of the interviewees. Good practice, pup.
So proud of you.
Things happen for a reason- this was a great testament to your strength.
Thanks for walking with me through this process. I'm getting insights from you all that I never had in interviewing before.
Now for a little nap.....
Leave them with a good feeling since..well you never know, you may see them again?
J.