Losing my Sanity

I'm currently sitting in my common room at my dorm with my friends.  I am able to detach myself from the situation I am in and I realize how I have so much pain and anguish inside me but I use the outside world to distract myself from it. I don't know how to deal with any of it.  I'm pretty sure I just ignore my problems.  I go to therapy and I acknowledge my issues and try to work on them but still somehow nothing ever gets fixed.  I don't really know what is going on with me.  I feel like I am going crazy.  I get in these states where I feel like I have dissociated and I'm looking down on myself and I don't have any control over my body.  I don't really know how to explain it.  I feel that I disconnect with reality too often.  I don't know what to do.  I fear I am losing my sanity