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• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Struggling to get over my ex

  Posted by: acarolan

  Last Reply: Sunbeams 05/04/2021

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  To start, I want to point out that I was never in a real relationship with this person.  We started out as a friends with benefits, my first and last, and started to hang out a lot.  We ended up talking everyday, hooking up, and going on dates for about a year.  I mentioned wanting to be exclusive several times, but he told me he didn't think he could handle a relationship with his mental health the way it is.  I knew he was hooking up with other people, but I accepted this was as far as we...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 04/26/2021

  acarolan joined the group Children Of Divorced Parents.

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  Cole on my mind again

  Posted by: acarolan

  Posted: 04/14/2021

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  Dear Ezra,I hate this so much.  I want to forget about him and move on, but that feels impossible.  All I can think about is how painful it has already been with him ~mostly~ out of my life, let alone cutting him out completely.  It made me spiral just thinking he didn't look at my ig story.  When he finally did, I felt so much better.  I can't believe I'm still this hung up on him 4 months later.  I really want to see him again, but I know that's pointless.  I am happy with Stephen, and...

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  Still Stupid Boy Drama

  Posted by: acarolan

  Posted: 03/22/2021

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  Dear Ezra,I don't know what to think anymore.  Stephen is incredibly supportive, but he doesn't really understand what I mean when I say I'm dealing with things to do with my mental health.  When I have bad anxiety days/weeks, I don't think he knows what I mean.  He keeps asking me what's stressing me out, and I don't know how to tell him it's nothing at all.  Last week, I had no assignments due and no appointments to keep after Thursday.  I spent the entire night struggling to breathe,...

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  Missing Cole

  Posted by: acarolan

  Posted: 03/17/2021

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  Dear Ezra,The more time I spend away from Cole, the more I miss him, and the more I worry this is unfair to Stephen.  I love Stephen, as much as I've ever loved anyone, and I hate to think I'm being unkind to him by entering this relationship before I'm over Cole.  When Cole and I had dinner together a few weeks ago, he flirted (not overtly, just little things I've learned at this point are his way of flirting).  It was fun, I've missed talking to him, and I'm worried that my feelings aren't...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/03/2021

  acarolan became friends with Vince3789.

• Anxiety
  

  Better days

  Posted by: acarolan

  Last Reply: hyperpgal 03/04/2021

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  I've been doing a lot better lately, bad habits haven't returned and I've been more productive in the last few weeks than I have since the pandemic started.  My boyfriend has been really supportive, and I haven't spent as much time with my more emotionally-draining friends (Don't get me wrong! love them, but sometimes I struggle with being there for them when I'm feeling overwhelmed myself).  I've gotten through the worst of my midterms, and I think I'll be able to be a more supportive friend...

• Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
  

  Discussion Like

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  Posted: 03/03/2021

  acarolan liked the discussion Shock has worn off, last night, Dads gone, forever.

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  Nathan

  Posted by: acarolan

  Posted: 10/30/2020

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  Dear Ezra,The one time a man tried to date me was because he wanted a trophy wife.  I know that sounds dramatic, and truth be told I was 18 and he was 21.  He came from money and liked to flaunt it.  When we met, he started snapping me daily and pushing for us to hang out more and more frequently.  I hoped he wanted to be friends, but he continued to hint at romantic things, and always tried to pay for me.  He would ask me about what I wanted in the future, how many kids, what career,...

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  Tired

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  Posted: 10/30/2020

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  Dear Ezra,Cole was supposed to spend the night last night.  I was really excited, I regret to admit.  I really like seeing him, but we never get to hang out for more than an hour or two at a time.  Normally, he comes over and we have sex, then we just hang out.  We have fun together, but I don't think he sees me as anything more than a friend, a friend he likes to hook up with.Anyways, he was supposed to come over last night.  I didn't hear from him all day, which was odd for us, but I...

• Anxiety
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: acarolan

  Posted: 10/30/2020

  acarolan commented on the discussion Updates.

• Depression
  

  Slipped back into old habits...

  Posted by: acarolan

  Last Reply: caring2018 10/19/2020

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  Hi everybody,Today I went back to old habits (going unnamed as to avoid triggering others).  I have a hard time stopping once I've started, and I'm worried these next few days/weeks are going to be consumed by me trying not to do it again.  Once I get passed that, I should be okay for at least a while.  I don't feel comfortable talking about this with my friends, not because they won't be kind, but because they have struggled with this kind of thing in the past, and I don't want to risk...

• Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
  

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  Posted: 10/11/2020

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• Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 10/05/2020

  acarolan commented on the discussion I survived my day off.

• Anxiety
  

  Anyone have any tips for calming down?

  Posted by: acarolan

  Last Reply: manx 09/24/2020

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  I posted this in a different group, and someone suggested I also share it here.  Thank you so much for reading! Really!!!!!There was a fire at my neighbors house over the summer, sparked by arcing power lines, caused by the most intense thunderstorm we've had in years.  Eventually, 2 houses and 3 garages on my block caught fire.  I spent 6 hours on the street (we couldn't go back in our homes in case they caught on fire as well) watching the firemen try to put out the fires as they kept...