I'm so tired.
Yesterday was my sweet angel Colleen's first birthday in heaven. I made some cup cakes, and took pictures of Colleen's photo with one cup cake and a burning candle on it. The whole day my emotions were dead. To me it was a private celebration, between me and Colleen. I felt close to her again.
Today is just reality again, and I'm a mess! I am so tired of this life's problems and hassles! I just don't understand the purpose or meaning of it all anymore!! I have no strength left to fight for answers or solutions...
Thankfully it is still raining outside, for a whole week now. I just wish the rain could wash my life clean also!!
Today is just reality again, and I'm a mess! I am so tired of this life's problems and hassles! I just don't understand the purpose or meaning of it all anymore!! I have no strength left to fight for answers or solutions...
Thankfully it is still raining outside, for a whole week now. I just wish the rain could wash my life clean also!!
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(((HUGS)))
You honored your precious Colleen in the most meaningful way for you. Oh, all of these tender days do take such a toll and aren\'t you also in the midst of a move? Each of these are huge life events so please do everything that you can to nurture and fill yourself back up.
I understand wishing that life could and would just stand still so that one could regain their footing. Such is this path and walk so that is why we are here to help steady one another when the winds and rains get blowing too hard.
Loving care my friend and may continued healing be yours,
XO Joanie
I\'m sure Colleen enjoyed the day along side you as you celebrated her birthday quietly... love ya!
(((Hugs))) (((Hugs))) (((Hugs)))And lots of Love
Maria
I am not sure what to say after I kept you up all night. Of course you are tired! Grieving is so exhausting! Add any problem to that, and it is much more exhausting! Rest today. I sometimes have exhaustion for a few weeks after the birthday or angel day, so if that happens it is normal.
Sweet love to you,
Leda
I do wish we had a manual on how to continue on...but we do have each other my dear SOTH. Please take care of yourself and remember it is okay to fall apart, for we loved our children so very much. Sending you gentle hugs for a blessed day. Debbie
Hugs to you my sweet friend. xoxo. I\'m here for you!
Tightest of heart hugs my friend~~