Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
...Apparently I really do need Abilify...I ran out, was ok for 3 days...then today I started thinking about the future.
Yanno what? I can't allow myself to think about the future too much. It goes straight from "how am I going to pay my bills," to "this shit is going to get worse," to "My life is hell," to "I should kill myself."
I ended up crying while I was driving to go pick up my meds, and while waiting for the county people to get my script ready.
I took my Abilify. I take more pills than a pac-man.
Yanno what? I can't allow myself to think about the future too much. It goes straight from "how am I going to pay my bills," to "this shit is going to get worse," to "My life is hell," to "I should kill myself."
I ended up crying while I was driving to go pick up my meds, and while waiting for the county people to get my script ready.
I took my Abilify. I take more pills than a pac-man.
I'm also on Abilify and many other drugs. I look at my illness as any other illness. If I had any other health problems separate from mental health, I would take meds for them. It's a personal journey for everyone to discover what they feel is best for them.
As for the thinking about the future, I also have those thoughts. Then I need to remind myself that I am not living in the present. I can't worry about tomorrow or the next day, etc. I never know how I'm going to feel when I wake up the next day, so I try my best to take things one day at a time. If I don't, I drive myself crazy. It's easier said than done, but it's doable. I hope that you can try this for yourself. I know it helps people.
(I appreciate the pac-man reference. I really loved that game growing up. Shit, I still do.)