definitely time to get a new therapist

I've been without my therapist now for a couple of weeks.

It's given me some breathing room and also a chance to

learn things from the afterglow of that marvelous and long term

experience and guidance.

I know that in a group I tend to get squirely brained and I realized

that may be an outlet of my passions not managed well (or better simply unmanageable by me -hence the condition I have).

And so I am seeing the need to just get a therapist again so that I have someone 

to discuss things with - and therapized out of my system.

Time to take care of myself. Hug my loved ones, friends and family and just do

what's proper and responsible to keep things managed. 

In light of all that I am starting to see that most folks in life have a prickly side.

My problem is that I want to live in grace and kindnesses. Part of my condition

was that I took in all the prickly shit people put out there to me - and took

it personally like I need to change or saw it as a motivator to firm myself up

inside. I see though as well, that people have prickly sides and kind sides too.

Here at the monastery they very much live in their prickly sides

and offer not apology for being a byotch or not being understanding and reasonable.

That being said I have kind of been coming to a place of just accepting that shit

as just a given here and with most people - yet knowing too that I am lucky enough

to have a few precious folks in my life who I share values and kindness with.

It's really wonderful enriching and lovely to know this and be able to hold onto it.