Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
I'm not sure what is going on, maybe I'm about to have a new memory. I'm doing well. I no longer have the intense hatred for the abused little child part. I have things going on in my life, but nothing too bad. All my medical conditions are under control. The problem is all the protector parts are out in force. The protector parts protect me from feeling intense emotional pain. The suicidal part is giving me thoughts of suicide. The self injuring part is giving me those thoughts. The compulsive overeater is hungry even though I just ate. The compulsive shopper part is spending too much money and still wants to buy things.The part that wants me to go to sleep even though i slept well and I'm not tired is out. All the protectors are out and active. In order to experience some healing for that little part that was abused I had to ask the protectors for permission to talk with that child part and that worked. I don't know what is going on now, but when I ask they just get stronger. It started last night about half way through a meeting. The part that wants me to sleep came out and it was all I could do not to fall asleep and the part that makes me want to run away came out too. Something must have triggered me. The topic was sexual intimacy and all I could think about was what my father did to me.
But I will remind you that we are all here for you, and you are safe now. He is not hurting you now, no matter what the parts are thinking or feeling. You are safe. Try to stay grounded.
i hope whatever it is that's brought your protectors out comes soon and passes quickly for you
kevin
I'm with you.
Mainly it's because I loose energy and motivation to do anything else.
It probably is a protector because I think my child is in a lot of fear and it saps my energy. Fear because I'm single again and not in a relationship. It's hard learning to be alone in healthy ways.
That's why i'm trying so hard to find my passion in life, because for me its part of saving my life rather than sleeping it away.
sorry this turned into a journal entry.
Like maybe asking them exactly what they are protecting you from now, and letting them know how much you appreciate them, but maybe trying to negotiate things.
Maybe your protectors have the right idea, or maybe they don't realise that in another way, they're hurting you. And if they used another way to protect you'd be able to be safer in the world.
Who knows. Protectors are excellent. Not that I'm biased or anything lol. Sometimes we just need an update on the realities of life now, as opposed to back when you were getting hurt. Then we can figure out new strategies to help things go well.
Controlling us or bossing us around doesn't go down well (my people have learnt the hard way!). But if you let us know how our protecting is impacting you and ask us for help we're more likely to want to be flexible. We really want our people to be safe and live well, so if something is really causing problems and there are alternatives, I don't see why your protectors would want to keep causing you grief.