I had the worst nightmares for a long time, but my psychiatrist gave me medication that helps me sleep and helps with nightmares and it has made a huge difference. I have tried 3-4 different kinds before I found the one that helped me. Have you talked to your psychiatrist? The other thing that helps me is my cats. They snuggle up next to me when I sleep and when I wake up terrified, their purring calms me down. I hope it doesn't happen tonight!

It generally takes me 2 weeks for a memory to convince me of its' validity, or so.

I believe he did it.

My husband who was abused by his father and other males, has the same nightmares and fb as you, with snakes entering his body .So i am convinced it happened to you.
I used to scream every night from childhood until 40 years old.It stopped when I was able to digest that trauma.
As my father used to come in my bedroom in the night,I had difficulty realising what was real from what was a nightmare.I also used to dissociate from the terror so it has taken me a long time to accept the validity of my flash backs.i could only perceive my father's face for a quarter of a second.
Our unconscious knows everything which happened,I have come to realise and it slowly delivers the message.For the conscious part, it seems unacceptable .But step by step it makes sense and suddenly becomes obvious.
I know you have an excellent therapist.It must contribute to you feeling safe and therefore remembering more stuff.
That wave of fb is going to pass.I always have to remind myself that I have already survived it from childhood and remind my inner parts that it's all finished as some do not know it.

Thanks. I do take medication that helps with the night terrors, but very strong ones do break through. As far as accepting what happened, it may take awhile.

I am in the flashback stage, and it is scary. My "witching hour" is around 3:00 a.m. I am on sleep medication and have been for years. Cats also help. They are natural healers.

it is so painful to open our hearts and minds to the betrayal. I was willing to accept that my grandfather must have beaten me but I never thought he molested me. all those years passing by his bedroom in fear i just thought it was because I was afraid i would piss him off and he would beat me. but after last summer's flashbacks I understand now.

I think my grandfather orally raped me too. I have not had the same dreams as you but other indications.

I wish I could say something useful and comforting. Try to be patient with yourself. Remember that no matter what your father did, he cannot define you. Your choices define you. You have chosen compassion and to heal, and that is why you are the better person.

I think these flashbacks and nightmares are your mind's way of giving you the evidence to break through your denial. He did it, you know he did. He hurt you then and you couldn't do anything about it except set up a protective screen of denial.

But that was the past. He can't hurt you any more. You're safe now. You no longer need the protection of denial.

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I want to thank everyone for their support. I don't know why it is so hard to accept that. He did plenty of other crappy stuff. I have very specific memories of the other things, but only evidence of this. This is when the nidht terrors started and the out of body experiences. This is also when the suicide attempts started. I have enough evidence, I guess I'll have to work on accepting it. It makes me very sad.

I'm right there with you Ioum. It's OK to be sad.
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