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I am an alcoholic. I haven't had a drink since Thanksgiving, which is not that long ago, but I am still proud of myself considering. I live in a house of addicts. My father, who follows me down the wine binge road, is a nightly drinker and it is his house I'm living. My brother, who also lives here, is hammered nightly on the most expensive beer while not paying rent. My husband is trying to "recover" from pills and heroin and uses his entire check to pay for suboxene, which is prescribed but denied by insurance.
I wish I could say that we are young. I am almost 40. I am a graduate of nursing school and am taking the licensure exam on Friday, of which I am profoundly stressed. Oh, did I mention my mother-in-law is also living here? She is homeless and a benzo/vicodin addict with no income, no teeth, and no legal right to work currently as her husband never renewed her greencard. I am going insane. I can't handle the world war 3 happening between my MIL and my husband, who fight constantly. He and I fight constantly. I am trying to make a bad situation better by being a nurse, but question how I can have stability in this shit. I also have kids, who live here. I have two boys, 6 and 9.
I wish it was pure will power that I'm not drinking, but it's my racing heart in the night and pancreas and liver pain really. I am under so much pressure and stress to be the sober "saviour" of this family that when I finally let loose and have a couple drinks, usu wine, it turns into 2 bottles. My husband has been through a war and has anger issues, and makes $300 every two weeks. His subox is $240 every two weeks. He gets a dumb coupon once every 30 days for $50 off. I'm like, wow, you are working for your drugs only, and gas, and cigarettes, and hard cider he drinks nightly.
We just had an epic argument, he threatened to not go to work, and his mother is walking back and forth giving a play-by-play to her husband who drives a truck, in their language, which is Serbian.
My mom died a year ago, then my grandmother, my dad is 70 and if he dies we are all homeless. My brother sleeps every fucking day until at least 1 pm, and he's 36. I don't know how to stay sober in this mess, but cry when I look at my son's sweet faces and think of leaving them in it. Any advice?
I wish I could say that we are young. I am almost 40. I am a graduate of nursing school and am taking the licensure exam on Friday, of which I am profoundly stressed. Oh, did I mention my mother-in-law is also living here? She is homeless and a benzo/vicodin addict with no income, no teeth, and no legal right to work currently as her husband never renewed her greencard. I am going insane. I can't handle the world war 3 happening between my MIL and my husband, who fight constantly. He and I fight constantly. I am trying to make a bad situation better by being a nurse, but question how I can have stability in this shit. I also have kids, who live here. I have two boys, 6 and 9.
I wish it was pure will power that I'm not drinking, but it's my racing heart in the night and pancreas and liver pain really. I am under so much pressure and stress to be the sober "saviour" of this family that when I finally let loose and have a couple drinks, usu wine, it turns into 2 bottles. My husband has been through a war and has anger issues, and makes $300 every two weeks. His subox is $240 every two weeks. He gets a dumb coupon once every 30 days for $50 off. I'm like, wow, you are working for your drugs only, and gas, and cigarettes, and hard cider he drinks nightly.
We just had an epic argument, he threatened to not go to work, and his mother is walking back and forth giving a play-by-play to her husband who drives a truck, in their language, which is Serbian.
My mom died a year ago, then my grandmother, my dad is 70 and if he dies we are all homeless. My brother sleeps every fucking day until at least 1 pm, and he's 36. I don't know how to stay sober in this mess, but cry when I look at my son's sweet faces and think of leaving them in it. Any advice?
May I bold enough to suggest first up be careful of what people tell you to do or not do, I can not know your situation enough to tell you to do anything.
What I would suggest you do is to look at what can I deal with now ie the nurse exam and your children from reading your post these are the immediate concerns.
Look at what you can and can not impact on ie your brother sleeping to 1pm most days. Can you impact on it or not then do what needs to be done.
With you hubby and remember I am from a different country who has different support systems, you say your husband has been to war is there any type of veterans support?? Have you inquired with a social worker who may be able to help??
I have no idea of the green card process and no real idea on how to help other than maybe talking to someone in immigration to see if there is something that can be done.
But guess what my advice is to do what you can and then chip at the rest, make decisions that are best for you at this time and with the info you had.
And remember the only saviour I can be is me, I can only save myself no one else, they must live there own life.
Wishing you all the best G8
Honey- you are doing the right thing. Hard as it is, doing the right thing will help you with staying sober. As for your house, you have hope with your occupation providing some stability to you and your kids.
Start with the first day, the first 24 hours. You haven't drank since Thanksgiving- that is awesome!!!!
Please keep us posted. I really hope you find peace. It sounds like you are a caring person who deserves it.
((( hugs )))
Peg