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On another pass with my parents...this time at my place...but will be discharged tomorrow for sure in time to see my psychiatrist.  Decreased the Celexa but will talk to my psychiatrist about...

I'm at my parents house on pass from the hospital for 4 hours so i can have thanksgiving dinner with the family.  I'm tired of the hospital...I want to be back at home but they won't let me...this...

my pastor is coming in to take me to the hospital er...i don't want to go...but i know i should... been cutting and od'ing both today and don't want to stop

I can't help but feel that the world would be so much a better place without me in it.  I feel like I'm just wasting everyone's time (I including yours) and wasting space.  I know it's been...

Derm appt went ok....aside from waiting for 1 hour to see the doctor.  He managed to pare down a lot of the thick skin on that wart and said it actually looks pretty good.  That said he also did...

Yikes...been awake since around 4am...so not cool.  Maybe feeling a teensy tiny bit better then yesterday but barely enough to even mention.  I soooooo want to give in and cut again.  I still...

i can't stop...i can't do anything or i need to do it all...i've been cutting on my stomach and my wrist...i want to keep going...i went out to the kitchen and saw a note from my roommate asking me...

...do i really need to say anything...

Took a double dose of my oxazepam so I'd sleep and it barely worked....but did sleep enough.  Woke up wishing that basically i had died in my sleep....obviously no such luck.  I know I should be...

how is it that i could feel so good yesterday and so awful today....i don't understand...I was so happy for a few days and had more then my usual energy level and was getting things done, today I...

still having urges and being tempted....i feel like i'd be better off dead... i had hoped an ativan and a nap would snap me out of it but now I just feel it worse....the only explanation i...

Not feeling so good today.  Not sure what my problem is.  Feeling urges today to cut and I don't know why...feeling anxious today and I don't know why.  I know I had a really hard time waking up...

Video about two guys who left college and their comfortable lives to spend a few months living on the streets.  The main guy in the film is the author of one of my favorite books called Under the...

Wow, I sat down to write here at around noon and it's 8:30pm now and I still haven't written.  That's okay though because I haven't been sitting here most of that time.  I started my usual morning...

So much on my mind I don't know were to start.   I've decided to put some extra effort into the whole not using the credit cards.  Darn it's hard to stop even though I really mainly use it for...