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I was tired last night.  I was in bed before 9pm...but even with a double dose of benedryl it took forever to fall asleep.  Once I fell asleep though I slept through the night and it was a little...

back at my apt...still feeling horrible...except to top it off my stomach has been upset for the last hour ever since i decided to eat supper...that was really the icing on the cake...just made my...

Ugghhh!!!!!!!!  I'm soooo annoyed and now i know I'm better off dead.  All I do is f*ck up things for everyone.  Everything I touch or look at seems to crumble.  This world is definitely better...

yeah...still at my parents house...but with any luck I will head back to the city tomorrow afternoon.  Laundry is almost done....last loads are in the dryer.  So I just need to pack things up and...

at my parents still...definitely need to get stuff done (laundry) so I can head back to the city... suppose to decrease my Celexa today to 20mg but I am too scared to...I don't think I can handle it...

still not doing very good...but did get a little bit done today... sorted my laundry and got the first load done...or almost done...i haven't taken it out of the dryer...*shrugs* dried some dishes...

i don't feel good at all today...well...that's partially a lie...physically i don't feel that bad...but i just don't feel like being alive...i can't seem to shake it...i don't know what to do did...

i feel like giving in...i feel like i shouldn't be here, like I don't belong in the world...I know these are lies but I can't make myself stop feeling them. I want to cut or od...i wish my mom still...

I'm kind of feeling blah today.  I am at my parents which is nice for a change but I am suppose to be doing laundry and I haven't even looked at it.  I just don't have it in me.  I slept in today...

A Hill Too High READ: Exodus 16:1-5 “ Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. —Matthew 6:34 ” My wife and I like to rollerblade. Near the end of one of our...

Decided I might as well start the count again...we'll see how it goes. Woke up super early this morning and the heat was back on.  Weird.  Apparently this is normal for this apartment.  Lovely. ...

Wasn't going to post another post tonight but accidently opened and read this devotional and it was basically exacly what I was talking about I think 2 entries ago so I really felt I needed to share...

Writing again now before I go to bed because I'm not sure if I'll have time tomorrow.  Tomorrow is my nephews birthday so when I get up (hopefully no later then noon) I will have to get right on my...

Not really sure what to write today.  I'm kind of feeling cranky and irritable today...but it was nice to wake up in my own bed (as uncomfortable as this cheap crappy mattress is).   I had a...

i had almost a whole entry written out and my computer decided out of nowhere to restart....ugghhh!!! anyway....i'm home...yay!   So sick of the hospital...it didn't do anything for me really this...