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ok...why is it that as soon as my sleep meds start to kick in my stomach decided to cramp up like never before and I've had to get up back and forth to the washroom.  Grrr.  I'm annoyed and taking...

well been talking to my therapist and my pastor and my friend Rachael and am still fighting the urges but i put the knife away.  I think another part of the problem that is making me want to give in...

stayed up all night fighting the urges because i couldn't sleep...eventually fell asleep on the couch after the sun came up.  Woke up at 2pm still feeling like giving in but haven't yet...found my...

so i know it's only a few hours since i wrote...it's only 1:45am....but i want to give in but i can't even find my blade....i know the razor blade i through out before i moved...but i know where i...

I want to give into the urges.  I really want to.   My day started off pretty good and I know what is triggering me.  So I am fighting the urges.  I got back to my place in the city late last...

I'm finally back at my place but feeling crummy.  It was after 10pm when I got home and I've been fighting the depression since I woke up today.  I am feeling overwhelmed with some things and I'm...

So glad I am heading home at some point today.  My mom is getting on my last nerve...I love her...but I am ready to strangle her I think.  *SCREAMS*  Just hearing her footsteps outside in the...

Heading to bed shortly since it's 2:45am...but thought I'd write quickly.  I kind of like writing before I go to bed...helps clear out my head a bit.   Gosh...87 days since last cut...I know I've...

Still hanging out at my parents house and enjoying having my Chloe (kitty) around.  As I write this she is laying on my bed making it so I can't stretch out my legs.  LOL.  Yes, I am laying on my...

Okay...definitely time to start getting the sleep back on track.  I think it was after 5am when I fell asleep and was probably around 3pm when I finally woke up.  The worst thing is I wake up and I...

I haven't gone to bed quite yet and it's 4:30am...but wanted to write something down quickly so I don't forget. Lessons I'm learning... 1) Need, need, NEED to put on the armor of God daily,...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcNZcCP17mc Been listening to a lot of music tonight since I am not sleepy. This one really touched me. 

This is an article my Aunt sent me in my email.  I need to try to remember how long some people have had to wait for God's promises to be fulfilled....especially when I'm complaining that I've...

Still at my parents, feeling a little down...but that might be because I've only had maybe 4 hours of sleep.  I sent an email to my pastor but haven't heard back yet...and I also scheduled an...

 I know deep down that God is with me even when I don't feel it and because of that I know I'm not giving into the things of the enemy without a good fight...and even then probably still won't.  I...