On another pass with my parents...this time at my place...but will be discharged tomorrow for sure in time to see my psychiatrist.  Decreased the Celexa but will talk to my psychiatrist about switching altogether.  The doctor at the hospital doesn't want to change it because he doesn't think the meds will make a difference.  I disagree...but whatever.  I asked to be discharged today but they didn't like that idea....but said tomorrow I can be.  I dunno what difference one more day will make but whatever.  I'm just tired and frustrated.  I want to be feeling better and I don't know how...nothing seems like it will work.  Actually...I do kind of know what will work but I really have been fighting it because it also makes it harder too.  I know I need to reach out to God and stop "ignoring" Him and get back on track that way...but I don't feel like I can...I don't want things to feel any harder then they already do...so yeah...I do know what I need to do...I just can't seem to un-stick myself from this mindframe and actually do it.  I don't know how to get unstuck....and part of me isn't sure I want to.  *shrugs*