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Made it back to the city with enough time to shower, have my online appointment, have supper, and get to depression group...was close though.  Online appointment went okay...I got really emotional...

Two weeks self injury free!  It doesn't seem like much but considering a few weeks ago the thought of even making it through one day seemed impossible.  I guess my suicide attempt kind of changed...

Piercing The Darkness “Come, Let us walk in the light of Jehovah” Isaiah 2:5 I grew up in a tiny fishing community along Nova Scotia’s eastern shore.  My home, along with my Paternal...

Still hanging out at my parents but will probably head back to the city today...if not today tomorrow  for sure...but probably today.  I just put my last load of laundry in that didn't get done the...

Well I did go shopping and it went okay...there was a bit there were I thought it was going to be a bad idea and got really anxious but managed and didn't get bad enough to need to take an ativan so...

At mom and dad's still.  Have one more load of laundry to do but I think I'm going to try to head out shopping for a bit.  I hope I don't end up feeling too drowsy to get anything accomplished.  I...

Still at my parents.  I am exhausted...so drowsy and achy.  But I am slowly getting the laundry done...speaking of which I think it's probably time to do more.  It is beautiful outside...so...

Just checking in before bed.  I'm at my parents house now and we're in the middle of a snowstorm (or at least that's what is forecast) and I love it!  I love snow...not cold...but snow.  :) I had...

I'm just checking in for a few minutes between appointments.  I had my psychiatry appointment this morning and it went well overall.  We've decided to add clonazepam to the mix of meds for the time...

okay, i need to stop reading the news...there's too much crazy shit happening around here lately...some of it is avoidable some of it is not.  But I want to share one article that puts a positive...

how do i make the anxiety stop...it's there almost always at various intensities.  I can't be popping ativan all day and this is really making it hard to get anything done.  It makes me feel...

i'm okay...i took an ativan and walked up to the restaurant...in the rainy, snowy, icy wet weather we were having...but I went.  I only got to see them for about 10 minutes...but I faced my anxiety...

Okay...so my appointment this morning went okay...i was up plenty early and so was able to get ready at my own pace...it was good.  My meds were increased today.  The effects of the increase hit me...

I went to the group tonight and it went okay.  It was hard to be there...but it was a good kind of hard.  I didn't say a whole lot but just mainly listened and observed.  So many in the group are...

I'm still feeling anxious and overwhelmed but better then I was.  I have a tentative plan for the day and tomorrow and will just see how things go.  I'm not going to the 3pm appointment but I will...