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so i know it's only a few hours since i wrote...it's only 1:45am....but i want to give in but i can't even find my blade....i know the razor blade i through out before i moved...but i know where i...

I want to give into the urges.  I really want to.   My day started off pretty good and I know what is triggering me.  So I am fighting the urges.  I got back to my place in the city late last...

I'm finally back at my place but feeling crummy.  It was after 10pm when I got home and I've been fighting the depression since I woke up today.  I am feeling overwhelmed with some things and I'm...

So glad I am heading home at some point today.  My mom is getting on my last nerve...I love her...but I am ready to strangle her I think.  *SCREAMS*  Just hearing her footsteps outside in the...

Heading to bed shortly since it's 2:45am...but thought I'd write quickly.  I kind of like writing before I go to bed...helps clear out my head a bit.   Gosh...87 days since last cut...I know I've...

Still hanging out at my parents house and enjoying having my Chloe (kitty) around.  As I write this she is laying on my bed making it so I can't stretch out my legs.  LOL.  Yes, I am laying on my...

Okay...definitely time to start getting the sleep back on track.  I think it was after 5am when I fell asleep and was probably around 3pm when I finally woke up.  The worst thing is I wake up and I...

I haven't gone to bed quite yet and it's 4:30am...but wanted to write something down quickly so I don't forget. Lessons I'm learning... 1) Need, need, NEED to put on the armor of God daily,...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcNZcCP17mc Been listening to a lot of music tonight since I am not sleepy. This one really touched me. 

This is an article my Aunt sent me in my email.  I need to try to remember how long some people have had to wait for God's promises to be fulfilled....especially when I'm complaining that I've...

Still at my parents, feeling a little down...but that might be because I've only had maybe 4 hours of sleep.  I sent an email to my pastor but haven't heard back yet...and I also scheduled an...

 I know deep down that God is with me even when I don't feel it and because of that I know I'm not giving into the things of the enemy without a good fight...and even then probably still won't.  I...

So far not feeling too bad today...and I'm actually going to be heading out to my parents for the day/night like I've been telling them all week.  Besides I desperately need to do laundry and you...

I don't want to complain...but this just hurts.  I'm so tired of the effort it even takes to breath and I just feel like my body is lead and so uncooperative.  It was all I could do to get a shower...

Today I haven't even really been up and I am feeling the depression so heavy today I just want to scream and hide from the world.  I am trying to pray and to seek my Daddy's face but I can't seem to...