Ellocin

Dear God,I know you are the answer to a lot of my problems but I am having such a hard time with the idea handing things over to You to look after.  I guess I am stuck in my own selfish human...

so i eventually got back to sleep and got up for my appointment...never did hear anything from my roommate....until i got home and sent another message seeing if she got the message....now we're in a...

so...i took my meds...the clonaz and the oxaz...and went to bed about an hour or two earlier then usual.  Ended up waking up wide awake at 11:45pm....what the hell is with that...couldn't even make...

Family is okay...they just all conveniently forgot about me and neglected to turn their cell phones on.  Water is back on...but not until after I left for my appointment.  The appointment was the...

FUCKEN PISSED OFF!!!!  For the second time this week there is no water here...last time I'm told it was a water main break...I don't know the issue this time but I'm fucken annoyed.  I need a...

Not feeling a whole lot better...but a little bit.  I feel rested, which is good since I slept a lot.....but at the same time I feel like crawling under the covers and staying there.  That's a no...

i napped...got 2-3 hours of sleep...though i had to take half an ativan to stop the anxiety...i woke up and feel worse then in awhile.  I feel so down and depressed and just can't stop crying and...

Super exhausted still..but did make it to church...don't remember most of it but i made it.  Almost didn't even get there...I had a hard time getting out of bed and then when I did wake up I thought...

I'm exhaustedly pooped!  LOL It's almost 9pm but I've been up since 6am and on the go almost since then.  Well...admittedly I probably didn't get out of bed until shortly after 6:30am but I was...

Doctor told me exactly what I was pretty sure of anyway but at least now people can stop telling me to have it looked at.  He said I'm doing everything exactly right...warm compresses and ibuprofen...

Was so good to sleep in this morning.  I did wake up semi-early because there were all kinds of emergency vehicles going by but managed to drift off again.  Problem with sleeping in is that it...

so...yesterday one of my entries got eaten so I'm gonna try again. I got up early, and went to my dermatology appointment.  Got there early and decided to go to the coffee shop across the street...

the anxiety got too bad...i didn't know what else to do to stop it...none of the meds were working so i had to burn...it was near immediate relief. 

URRGGGGHHHHH I just had a nice long entry written out and when I hit send it gave me an error and dissappeared.  *scowls*   I would write it again now...but I need to get some stuff done.  Will...

Okay I'm awake...I set the alarm for 6:30am which is plenty early considering it was after 2am when I was able to sleep. I have now eaten my breakfast and taken my meds and still need to change into...