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i'm really mad and upset right now...my appointment was at 11am...and i totally didn't hear the alarm or the phone ringing and didn't wake up until after 12noon!!!  I'm so annoyed with myself.  I...

I'm trying to wind down for bed now because I have an appointment in the morning with my old counselor....but I'm having anxiety issues.  Today has been okay overall.  I did get on SL for a few...

I'm doing okay.  Soon getting ready for my dental appointment.  I hope they are able to fix that tooth enough so it at least doesn't hurt to eat or bite down.  The rest of the work I don't care...

wow, so it's been a little crazy here today with insane weather but it's okay.  It was insane rain and wind...so much that the windows in my room were leaking from the top and my roommate basically...

slept pretty well and i don't think i took any sleep meds...yay having a lazy day...it's rainy and we have a wind warning so it's a good day to relax, glad i got out yesterday before this crazy...

I'm doing okay tonight.  I really felt today like I needed to get out even though I felt like crawling into bed and hiding all day.  Instead I called mom to see if we could do something.  I wasn't...

i'm not doing very good...mentally or physically...i know it sounds horrible to say but part of me wishes that i had been successful on monday so i wouldn't be here to feel anymore...i'm trying to...

The Sack Lunches I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book to read. Perhaps I will get a short...

man i was so blah when i wrote yesterday that i forgot to mention that i won a contest in the local newspaper here..it was a lexicon puzzle contest (cross between a wordsearch and a crossword).  I...

i'm not really feeling much like journalling today so i'm not sure if i'll write much or not... most of the day i was super hyper and felt like i could take on the world...i was like that from...

don't have time to write right now as I need to soon leave for my genetics appointment.  But wanted to invite everyone to Write Love on Her Arms day...here is the link to the facebook group:...

So with the latest experiences, God has once again been on my heart and my spiritual side isn't so hardened as it was before.  I think maybe I still have some walls up but they're being hacked away...

i'm really sorry and ashamed at my entries lately my last entry especially...I am really sorry.  I know I scared and worried and probably offended a lot of you...I honestly didn't mean to...I wasn't...

fucken idiots around here i'm officially free and more suicidal than i was when i went in...didn't even know it was possible...and i told them you let me go today i'm going to kill myself....because...

sorry i haven't written in a few days....my psychiatrist and i decided to try another admission so went straight from my appointment with her to the hospital.  I'm on pass right now...at home...my...