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I can't help but feel that the world would be so much a better place without me in it.  I feel like I'm just wasting everyone's time (I including yours) and wasting space.  I know it's been...

Derm appt went ok....aside from waiting for 1 hour to see the doctor.  He managed to pare down a lot of the thick skin on that wart and said it actually looks pretty good.  That said he also did...

Yikes...been awake since around 4am...so not cool.  Maybe feeling a teensy tiny bit better then yesterday but barely enough to even mention.  I soooooo want to give in and cut again.  I still...

i can't stop...i can't do anything or i need to do it all...i've been cutting on my stomach and my wrist...i want to keep going...i went out to the kitchen and saw a note from my roommate asking me...

...do i really need to say anything...

Took a double dose of my oxazepam so I'd sleep and it barely worked....but did sleep enough.  Woke up wishing that basically i had died in my sleep....obviously no such luck.  I know I should be...

how is it that i could feel so good yesterday and so awful today....i don't understand...I was so happy for a few days and had more then my usual energy level and was getting things done, today I...

still having urges and being tempted....i feel like i'd be better off dead... i had hoped an ativan and a nap would snap me out of it but now I just feel it worse....the only explanation i...

Not feeling so good today.  Not sure what my problem is.  Feeling urges today to cut and I don't know why...feeling anxious today and I don't know why.  I know I had a really hard time waking up...

Video about two guys who left college and their comfortable lives to spend a few months living on the streets.  The main guy in the film is the author of one of my favorite books called Under the...

Wow, I sat down to write here at around noon and it's 8:30pm now and I still haven't written.  That's okay though because I haven't been sitting here most of that time.  I started my usual morning...

So much on my mind I don't know were to start.   I've decided to put some extra effort into the whole not using the credit cards.  Darn it's hard to stop even though I really mainly use it for...

Today I am feeling pretty good and although my body still isn't cooperating with me.  I woke up at like 9am having thought I slept in and that it was like 2pm.  So I got about 5 hours of...

So what was it I was planning to accomplish today?  I kind of forget...  Well, I know I did some of it...I had a shower, cut the fingernails on one hand, mailed a letter, did laundry, ate, and...

I am a Christian When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I 'm found and forgiven." When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak...