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• Self-Injury
  

  i ruined everything.

  Posted by: pencil

  Last Reply: ShyRebel 05/30/2018

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  last night is seriously a blur. i didn't feel like i was real and i didn't feel like i was in control of my own body. it was kind of just moving on its own and i just had to watch. i was just over a year clean from self harm and i cut really bad last night. i hate myself and i'm so mad at myself for ruining it. it was so stupid and idk why i did that. i have this really bad feeling that i just fucked up everything. i don't know how i'm going to go to work and be able to cover it up. the cuts...

• Rape
  

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  Posted by: pencil

  Posted: 05/28/2018

  pencil liked the discussion Catching up to me.

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 05/28/2018

  pencil commented on the discussion Can't stop crying.

• Pregnancy
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 05/28/2018

  pencil commented on the discussion Pregnant and Alone.

• Breakups & Divorce
  

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  Posted: 05/11/2018

  pencil liked the discussion I need help ugh.

• Depression
  

  there is nothing i like about life anymore

  Posted by: pencil

  Last Reply: LostInTheFridge 05/04/2018

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  i think about dying often. and it's so stupid because on the surface i have such a wonderful life. my "boyfriend" was homeless for several months, nothing went his way at all during those few months. he was constantly complaining, stressed and angry at me. i tried to sympathize and make him feel better but every time i try to help he says i just make things worse. i tried talking to him about my problems, but every time i mentioned how a customer treated me really badly or how my work was...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 04/01/2018

  pencil joined the group Pregnancy.

• Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
  

  did i ruin my life? (possibly triggering?)

  Posted by: pencil

  Last Reply: SSSam 04/11/2018

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  i'm going to talk about weed in a more positive light at times so i don't know if that would be bad since this group is for overcoming marijuana addiction. but idk who else to talk to.so my parents recently snooped through my brother's phone and found out that we've both been smoking weed. (he's 16 i'm 19). my mom made all these insane assumptions that i'm a drug dealer now and that i'm selling weed to him and our younger brother. (newsflash, i'm not.) my dad dgaf but he's just afraid that i'm...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 03/25/2018

  pencil joined the group Marijuana Addiction & Recovery.

• Sexual Abuse
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 03/12/2018

  pencil commented on the discussion my friend knew i was going to be raped.

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 03/12/2018

  pencil commented on the discussion Bitter.

• Sexual Abuse
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 03/11/2018

  pencil commented on the discussion my friend knew i was going to be raped.

• Sexual Abuse
  

  my friend knew i was going to be raped

  Posted by: pencil

  Last Reply: SashingtonElliotsworth 06/03/2018

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  guess what news i just fucking got. tomorrow, march 10th, is the day i was raped two years ago. i didn't think that the rape affected me that much anymore, but ever since march 1st i've been suffering nightmares of rape almost every night, crying at random times, random flashbacks, and just generally realizing that i've been subconsciously thinking about it a lot more than i thought. i randomly remembered that my "friend", Jeff, supposedly had texts from a few guys talking about the rape or...

• Anxiety
  

  nothing feels real anymore

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  Last Reply: kristina14 02/13/2018

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  hi.. i have no idea what is going on so this might not be the right place to post this. but anxiety is the closest thing i've been able to relate what i'm experiencing to, so i'm going to start here for now.for over a week now, i've gotten these long moments during the day where life doesn't feel real anymore. it feels like i'm living a dream. my mind feels asleep. it feels like there's a screen or fog over my eyes and i can't focus or see through it. it feels like my vision is blurry, just...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 02/12/2018

  pencil joined the group Anxiety.