naimalove

i have no car.  my stbx has a car and will b parking it in the lot while he goes to work.  i mention 2 him im trying to figure out how to get to church 4 the eve service.  i havent been without a...

2 get comfortable.  its the humidity more than the heat i knowim frustrated.  my car needs major work and i dont know if its worth it.  but i paid 2 grand for it only 2 months ago.  not quite 2...

i fall asleep without a problem, but i wake sometimes multiple times during the night.  i sometimes fantasize about what life will be like...about having a husband...about finishing college...i have...

my stbx agreed to pay support, but hasnt made a payment.  he's gonna wait for his jo to take the money out.  im not surprised; just disappointed.  its funny that someone who claims to care so much...

thinking about school.  doing school work.  watching tv.  sleeping. and eating.  feeling a cool breeze.  generally not thinking of my stbx.  if only every day cld b this way. 

i have given so much of my power to stbx.  i talk about him.  i think about him.  i yell at him.  i love him.  i hate him.  i cry over him.  i pray 4 him.  i worry about him.  its a...

the worst thing i can do 2 stbx is leave him.  i loved him with my whole heart.  or with what was left after loving God.  idk.  well he will never find a better love on earth than mine.  he will...

my stbx tells me that when we were 2gether he wld look at other couples with disdain.  i feel like he betrayed me from the moment we took our vows.  that he was not committed to keeping those...

stbx asked me on the day i served him with divorce papers to pick up his dry cleaning.  i did it 2 b kind, but i dont even know if it can be considered kid b/c my attitude about it is pain.  i keep...

i received my divorce papers.  i have to serve my husband and he has to sign that he received it.  then in 91 days from then we have to sign saying the divorce is final and then i have to send both...

had lunch with my husband and he paid.  i got him to drive me somewhere semi far b/c i didnt have the energy 2 make the trip.  i slept the whole way.  we didnt talk at all.  and he gave me some...

i just wanted to be held today.  by damn near anyone.  i wanted a man.  i guess to feel that masculine energy.  i dont think im such a horrible person.  anyone in my position wld feel angry hurt...

no bid shocker.  my stbx hasnt shown up to hold me and hsnt even bothered to call.  amazing how things change.  honor is just not high on peoples lists of importance.  im starting 2 wonder if...

i feel like crap 2day. baby's moving a lot.  i usually find joy in that; not 2day.  im glad shes moving which proves shes alive, but im kinda detached from it.  i have a headache.  im frustrated...

we had an appt at family court to settle support.  he showed up after i left and without his pay stubs.  so now we have to go back in april and in the meantime he can not b depended upon 4...