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Day One is always easy.  I was on the elliptical for 15 1/2 minutes and I ate a total of 1165 calories.  I can't find my earbuds so it's harder to stay on the elliptical longer.  I go to the gym...

I got on my old blog today and realized I haven't posted since December.  So, I made a new post at trading-anxiety-for-love.blogspot.com  A friend wants me to get a tumblr account but they seem to...

I'm at a residential facility for people with issues similar to my own.  It's in Massachusetts, so I'm about an hour away from my family, whom I visit often.  I was very excited Wednesday and...

Tomorrow I fly to my parents house for Christmas. I'm nervous because 3x in the last 2 weeks I've been very suicidal. I called a hot-line or did something like that and got through it, but I don't...

It's not fair.  Yet it happens all the time.  Unrequited Love.  I love him.  I trust him.  I would be willing to give myself up for him.  He thinks of me as a friend and no more.  My life is...

To the tune of "The Yellow Rose of Texas" Oh, the crazy roads of Texas,with stops signs that I don't see!Sometimes I go straight through them,Don't think they're there for me.Then other times I stop...

I have finally accepted that I have DID.  What a journey this has been!  First anxiety and depression starting in 2006, then realizing that that's not just going to go away with rest.  Then...

Read the following excerpts, then my question. From Bill Gillham's book "Lifetime Guarantee: Making your Christian Life Work and What to Do When It Doesn't" pp 50-51..."If you have accepted Jesus as...

It's been a month since the last time I cut.  I seem to be in a once a month pattern.  So now i have to try to break it and go two months.  The last week or two have been really rough.  Tempted...

I think I understand the contrast between vs. 2 and 5 now.Galatians 51Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may...

Galatians 51Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way...

Okay - that schedule is not working.  New sleep schedule is in order. Bed at 9, up at 7, nap 1:30-3:30.  Now, this requires moving a class I teach, so I need to talk to the parents and see if we...

Last night I lay down at 9:30, but had some dissociation and anxiety going on, so couldn't fall asleep.  I finally did around 10:30 after taking ambien. Up at 7 again.  I've been doing good with...

I ended up napping from 4:30-8 yesterday afternoon.  Then I couldnt' fall asleep until 1AM.  I still got up at 7 this morning.  Then I had a nap from 2:00-4:30.  It's 9 now and I'm ready to...

Lights out at 10:15 last night.  A friend called at 11 and I didn't even hear it!  Unfortunately I left my ipod on repeat so I woke up at 3:30 with it still playing.  Wasn't awake long though. ...