Ambrosia6

  I got this awesome journal 2 years ago and filled it in three months.  What I loved about it is that the pages are not stark white!  They are faded ivory/yellowish whatever you would call it...

I just snappedthere's this song we're singing in chapel tomorrow and I need to transpose it.I can't right now.  My stupid anxiety is way to high I can't think.  I can't do this simple thing.I'm...

Tuesday night when I had the panic attack that never ends (yes it goes on and on my friend....)  I was in the kitchen, wanting to put a box of crackers in the cupboard.  Well, my shelf was tilted -...

Started when I got off the computer and went to the kitchen to get a snack and glass of water before bed. Continued til I woke up this morning. Dreamed of calling my roomies for help. Sometimes...

I made it through three weeks of gluten free.  My rash is a lot better, but some other things are not.  Fatigue is worse, but could be an anxiety med that's causing that.  What's the balance I...

Fighting a panic attack. Why can't I just tell my roommate? She'd help. But the thought of asking for help makes it worse. Is that ironic or paradoxical, I'm not sure which.Frustration!

GOD,The thing I value above all else is my faith in You. My trust in You, that You are Almighty, ever-loving God. I want nothing more than the Peace of knowing I'm safe in You, following You and a...

What if I cut myself?What if I give in?Would it help?  Would I feel better?  Or would it make things worse? What will help?  Who can help?  I won't give in, I rarely do.  99% of the time I...

I'm in denial again.  I don't think the SA happened.  Maybe it didn't.  The memory is so elusive. I was just doing the workbook for group and it asks "Describe your feelings towards those people...

I've been on this site for two weeks now.  Sometimes it's a little overwhelming, seeing everyone's struggles, but a lot of the time it's helpful to know there's others out there struggling like I...

Gluten free for 2 weeks!  I'm about ready to eat every cookie, muffin, cake, and pastry I can find in the baked goods department - followed by a box of oreos.  But I'm sticking with this for...

I'm up at 3 AM.  But I stayed in bed until 3 PM.  Serves me right. I'm feeling weird . . . dissociating type stuff.  I just want to sleep.  I see my therapist tomorrow - i totally flooded her...

Okay, I here's the joke, but I switched it up to make suicide less appealing.  Before it was like when you get the hospital bill from when you went to the psych ward and say, "Geez, maybe I shoulda...

I found some resolution to the confusion of the other night.  I've written out in a metaphor below. If you aren't familiar with the story of the Israelites and their wandering in the desert, then...

Idont understand I don't understand I don't understandI'm in the deep end. Talk, beth, talk. Silence...I reached out will someone answer in the morning?I'll have a lot of anxiety tonight. Ill feel...