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I made it through three weeks of gluten free.  My rash is a lot better, but some other things are not.  Fatigue is worse, but could be an anxiety med that's causing that.  What's the balance I...

Fighting a panic attack. Why can't I just tell my roommate? She'd help. But the thought of asking for help makes it worse. Is that ironic or paradoxical, I'm not sure which.Frustration!

GOD,The thing I value above all else is my faith in You. My trust in You, that You are Almighty, ever-loving God. I want nothing more than the Peace of knowing I'm safe in You, following You and a...

What if I cut myself?What if I give in?Would it help?  Would I feel better?  Or would it make things worse? What will help?  Who can help?  I won't give in, I rarely do.  99% of the time I...

I'm in denial again.  I don't think the SA happened.  Maybe it didn't.  The memory is so elusive. I was just doing the workbook for group and it asks "Describe your feelings towards those people...

I've been on this site for two weeks now.  Sometimes it's a little overwhelming, seeing everyone's struggles, but a lot of the time it's helpful to know there's others out there struggling like I...

Gluten free for 2 weeks!  I'm about ready to eat every cookie, muffin, cake, and pastry I can find in the baked goods department - followed by a box of oreos.  But I'm sticking with this for...

I'm up at 3 AM.  But I stayed in bed until 3 PM.  Serves me right. I'm feeling weird . . . dissociating type stuff.  I just want to sleep.  I see my therapist tomorrow - i totally flooded her...

Okay, I here's the joke, but I switched it up to make suicide less appealing.  Before it was like when you get the hospital bill from when you went to the psych ward and say, "Geez, maybe I shoulda...

I found some resolution to the confusion of the other night.  I've written out in a metaphor below. If you aren't familiar with the story of the Israelites and their wandering in the desert, then...

Idont understand I don't understand I don't understandI'm in the deep end. Talk, beth, talk. Silence...I reached out will someone answer in the morning?I'll have a lot of anxiety tonight. Ill feel...

Day 6 of gluten free!  The rashes on my hands and face do seem better, though not completely gone.  It's hard to judge if my energy level is higher. I've been gorging myself on gluten free...

Some of the group discussions are becoming to triggering for me.  I need to step back.  I like to 'keep up' with the forums I'm on, read everything and make sure I don't miss anything, but it's too...

I experiencing some anxiety symptoms.  Walking is taking extra effort, can't focus, typing faster than usual, cosncious of breathing - yeah. Deap breath.  I have 3 options. 1) close the bedroom...

Went grocery shopping at Sprouts today.  Bought some gluten free products, and then lots of fruits and veggies.  I don't generally eat a lot of fresh produce, but I know i'm going to be wanting to...