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Yesterday when I was talking to my daughter in law she stated that the Father's Day present that she gave me, my son had bought it for me before he died.  It hit me so hard when she told me that, it...

Today is Father's day and it is a hard one.  We went out to the cemetery yesterday and it was so hard to read Lance's name on the head stone and thinking he should be the one looking at mine.  It...

Yesterday I went and watched my granddaughter compete in her first horse show of the year and she was just outstanding.  But it was so hard being there because my son would have been so proud of her...

I haven't written for along time but decided to on this Memorial Day, it has been almost eight months since Lance died from suicide and things are getting better but at times it is still very hard. ...

On the 2nd of May it was seven months since my son left us through suicide and in some ways it seems like a long time ago but in others it seems like yesterday.  There are still times I have a hard...

Today is the seventh months since I lost my son to suicide and although in some ways it seems like a lot longer in other ways it seems like just the other day.  This week has been real hard on his...

Have felt a little better the last couple of days, had a real hard week-end but yesterday I took my grandson, Gage, fishing and we had a real good time he really seems to enjoy it and he will talk...

Today would have been my son's 43rd birthday and even though it has been six months since he left us it is still hard to believe.  We have our last group session tonight so I hope it can bring us a...

Went to the cemetery this morning and left some flowers at my son's grave site.  It is his birthday on Thursday and he would have been 43, it is hard to believe that it has been six months since he...

It has been almost 6 months since my son died of suicide and some days it is better than others.  We had our group session last night and that always help for a while.  Have a problem, do you think...

Today is five months since by son died by suicide.  It seems, in someways, like it was yesterday and in others like it has been a lot longer.  Had a real tough night and am not sure if it was...

Feeling a little better this week although there are still those times when my thoughts of my son bring out the tears and heart break.  Had another group session on Thursday and it went well it is...

Had a pretty good week-end, we had the grandkids over and they stayed with us over the week-end.  It is nice to have them here however it still brings up the question how he could have done that and...

We went to our first group meeting with those who have lost loved ones to suicide on Thursday evening and I think it will really help us as we go through it for the next eight weeks.  The group was...

Some days are so hard and I feel so low and then there are times I am so mad that it makes me feel a little better, who knows why.  We have got to go pick out a headstone in the next couple of days...