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It has been four years today since my son took his life.  Things are a lot easier but there is still a lot of sad time and wonder why.  I haven't written for a while but just felt I needed to...

It has been three years today when I lost my son to suicide.  In some ways it seems like yesterday and other ways it seems like many more years ago.  Things have improved but there are still those...

It has been 18 months since I lost my son to suicide and today would have been his 44th birthday.  I haven't written for a while but I just had to today.  I miss him so much and although it has...

It has been a while since I last wrote but I have been needed to write for a while.  This was the second holiday season without my son Lance and probably the hardest.  My sister who also lost a son...

Another holiday is here and although this is the second Thanksgiving since I lost my son the empty feeling is still there and the joy of this holiday has been lost in that emptiness.  It is...

Haven't written for a while but thought I would today.  It has been over a year now since loosing my son and there are times that it feels like it was yesterday and other times it feel so long...

To day is angel day for my son Lance, it has been a year since we lost him.  We went out to the cemetery today and it really was hard.  I thought after a year some of the pain would be less, but on...

We went camping last Saturday and stayed for four nights.  It was a place we have gone so many times and took the kids and it was one of Lance's favorite places to camp.  We also spread some of his...

It has been 11 months, almost to the hour, that my son took his life and it has been a real hard day for all of us.  I don't think he could have realized all the people he hurt by doing what he...

I want to thank all of you that wrote me about my last Journal entry it is so great knowing that there are people out there who really care and understand the feelings we sometime have when something...

Yesterday when I was talking to my daughter in law she stated that the Father's Day present that she gave me, my son had bought it for me before he died.  It hit me so hard when she told me that, it...

Today is Father's day and it is a hard one.  We went out to the cemetery yesterday and it was so hard to read Lance's name on the head stone and thinking he should be the one looking at mine.  It...

Yesterday I went and watched my granddaughter compete in her first horse show of the year and she was just outstanding.  But it was so hard being there because my son would have been so proud of her...

I haven't written for along time but decided to on this Memorial Day, it has been almost eight months since Lance died from suicide and things are getting better but at times it is still very hard. ...

On the 2nd of May it was seven months since my son left us through suicide and in some ways it seems like a long time ago but in others it seems like yesterday.  There are still times I have a hard...