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Today is five months since by son died by suicide.  It seems, in someways, like it was yesterday and in others like it has been a lot longer.  Had a real tough night and am not sure if it was...

Feeling a little better this week although there are still those times when my thoughts of my son bring out the tears and heart break.  Had another group session on Thursday and it went well it is...

Had a pretty good week-end, we had the grandkids over and they stayed with us over the week-end.  It is nice to have them here however it still brings up the question how he could have done that and...

We went to our first group meeting with those who have lost loved ones to suicide on Thursday evening and I think it will really help us as we go through it for the next eight weeks.  The group was...

Some days are so hard and I feel so low and then there are times I am so mad that it makes me feel a little better, who knows why.  We have got to go pick out a headstone in the next couple of days...

This week-end has been real sad, we went to the cemetery on Saturday and then went and looked at headstones to put on my son's grave, that was real hard, heck, it is them that should be looking for...

For some reason today I am really sad, I am going up to my son's house and check on it for his wife while they are out of town and I don't know if that is the reason I feel like this, it just hit...

It has been 18 months since I lost my son to suicide and today would have been his 44th birthday.  I haven't written for a while but I just had to today.  I miss him so much and although it has...

It has been a while since I last wrote but I have been needed to write for a while.  This was the second holiday season without my son Lance and probably the hardest.  My sister who also lost a son...

Another holiday is here and although this is the second Thanksgiving since I lost my son the empty feeling is still there and the joy of this holiday has been lost in that emptiness.  It is...

Haven't written for a while but thought I would today.  It has been over a year now since loosing my son and there are times that it feels like it was yesterday and other times it feel so long...

To day is angel day for my son Lance, it has been a year since we lost him.  We went out to the cemetery today and it really was hard.  I thought after a year some of the pain would be less, but on...

We went camping last Saturday and stayed for four nights.  It was a place we have gone so many times and took the kids and it was one of Lance's favorite places to camp.  We also spread some of his...

It has been 11 months, almost to the hour, that my son took his life and it has been a real hard day for all of us.  I don't think he could have realized all the people he hurt by doing what he...

I want to thank all of you that wrote me about my last Journal entry it is so great knowing that there are people out there who really care and understand the feelings we sometime have when something...