fluterify

No one deserves to feel or be treated this way, ever. So then why do I tell myself I deserve it. I know I don't and yet I repeat this phrase constantly. Why is it the logical paart of my brain knows...

I'm not doing too badly lately. Not bad at all except for wanting one thing. And the fact that I want it in the first place scares me. Why would anyone want it? :'(

The tears well up insideAs I cringe in fearYou are only a few inches tallerBut much biggerAnd I dought you knowKnow the fear you causeBut it hurtsIt hurts so muchI'd rather you get rid of the...

I never realized what damage bullying can do. Sure I knew it hurt at the moment but I did not know I would still feel the pain years later. And have destroyed my self esteem. I feel so worthless.

To lean or rely on others to get me through the really tough times?

Right now nursing is my moon and a fun college program is my stars. What's yours?And feel free to add anyother positive words as well.

Anger and disapointment are a trigger for self harm or disordered eating.

I can't give up, I promised I wouln't. I just can't but I want to soooo badly. I don't know what to do. But I won't I'l try really hard not to I promise. :'(

Had an appointment with the psychiatrist today that went a lot better than I expected. I still don't see a way of getting better but it is a start and a big step. 

Sick and tired of feeling this way. :( :p

What right do I have to feel this way? It's not like anything terrible has ever happened to me. So I guess I don't have any right to at all.

Your words cutLike a hot knife though butterAnd there's nothing I can doBut bleedAnd ignore youBut you don't back downWon't just go awayYou know it hurtsAnd you feed off my painI bleedWhere no one...

I have no voice,I have no right.For I am the daughter,The lowest of the low.My thoughts do not matter,My ideas do not count.You can hit me,No one would know.You can yell at me, beat me,No one would...

I want to be able to write my poems, but I can't. I can't get how I feel across. And this is only making things sorse cuz at time I need to talk.

Being a fighter is good, yes. It has helped keep me alive this long. But a tthe same time it is exausting and I try to do it on my own. Yes, it's bad I know but it is so ingrained it's hard to fight.