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That's all I can promise to keep living for. My pain continues to be unbareable.

I'm not sure even I myself am able to recognize how much pain I really am in right now. I'm only getting it in trickles in small amounts but soon enough the full issue will raise its ugly head I'm...

What's the point in continuing to fight?Why bother keep living?:'(

Terrified of myself :'(

Had about 35 hours of sleep in the past 11 days.Been going up and down A LOT.Sliding hard right now.:'(0 self esteem.

Who am I to say I deserve to live?

I'm doing ok, I've set a goal for myself that for the month of October I will not hurt myself in any way shape or form.We'll see how that goes.On a slightly less positive note a part of me is still...

Hoping for a long time but I dought I can be strong much longer. I wouldn't be suprised if another suicide attempt happens soon.

I don't know why I'm here at this amazing University I DO NOT deserve to be. I am a horrible person, I can't see why God wants me to be his child. I'm trying but failing so miserably at everything. I...

There's a tension in these veinsThat can only mean one thing,I'm prepared to cut any day nowWhen given the chance.There's a nawing in my stomachRepeating that old lie,You are too fat to eatSo why...

I'm struggling to not harm myself.

I'm not worth all the love I recieve. :'( Really I'm not.

Today I had a nice but busy day with some of my family packing up a lot of my nana's things so my mom and I can move it out and get our stuff moved in. While we were looking at stuff in the basement...

For a while I have known intelectually that what I am going through is a spiritual battle but I had not fully known (and still don't because I am only human) what that ment. Tonight though I felt it,...

Why do I want to die? I look fine, sure my skin is bad but people always see me with a smile on. Why do I feel so bad inside? I have no right to, nothing horribly wrong has ever happened in my life...