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Strength, where does it come from. Where does it go? Why have I lost most of mine? How do I get it back? I feel weak, pointless and some how abandoned.

I want to die don't know or care how but I want to but at the same time I don't want to leave you guys behind.

I am so empty and broken just nothing. I'm completly worthless. Why do you guys even care? Why do I care?

I just do not want to live any more. Do I have to? I dought it but can anyone let me go?

I hurt, this I know but in a way I can't feel it. No, thats not right I feel it plenty but I would much rather it be physical than emotional. I've already tried twice in less than a year could I at...

Don't know where don't know when or how but I feel like I am going to do it. Make the third time be a very uncharming charmed. All I want it to be is painful cause thats all I deserve.

I feel like nothing. Like I can't do anything deffinatly nothing right. And all I really want to do is sleep and do physical harm to my self. :(

:'( How long will I last this time?

I just don't know. I have no idea any more, do I really care for life any more? I have no more idea. I might want to...

If I could just go to sleep for at least 24 hours I would I don't really feel like living, not necessarily dieing but not living either. I've stopped eating 2 meals a day so now I normally get 2...

I feel like a shell. On the inside this war of the worlds (life or death) is going on but I in no way have any part in the out come. In a way I am glad because I feel so weak right mow even a tiny...

I just want to give up. I've had enough, I can't handel this anymore. I don't know what to do?

I'm not ready you can't be back yet. I'm still too weak.

I'm stronger than I thought. Sure, I've done some REALLY stupid things but I survived and have come out for the better.

I'm sorry I can't see through this haze. How it makes me want to slice my wrists my throat. How this terror makes me want to kill my self, jst end the pain. I really don't know what else to do. :'(...