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I can't breath any moreI don't want to eatI need to cutI want to die

I can't help but feeling life is not worth it any more. I hate myself and can't seem to change that. Sure, life gets better but then it gets a lot worse. I unsuccessfuly tried before but I actually...

I became frantic to day look for where my mom hid the pills. I never did find them so I ended up purging instead. Thing is I enjoyed the feeling of hurting myself. It's almost as if it's become an...

Is it not better to have an eating disorder than to be over weight?

Weigh daily                                      Weight drop of at least 78 poundsEat...

Satan just ake me away. God please let me go, I'm worthless.

I took ballet for 13 years and loved every minuet! But now that I have far from a ballet body I have an evil ballerina inside who would love to see me be a mere 63 pounds. Do I let her?

Living in fearHolding back tearsFighting to eatStriving to starveHealing in waysStepping back in to old habitsStruggling dailyFighting alwaysFor Perfection

Even though I have been getting treatment for everything from the very begining I have just decided I actually want to recover once and for all.

I hate my body, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! There is nothing good or pleasing about it. And my weight is only going up, so I'll contiue starving myself. The weight will have to eventually come...

Am I really back into this again? Eat less than normal and when ever I do eat I purge. Really? Why do I do this to myself?

Perhapes I should simply accept what childhood bullies tried to teach me, that I am worthless. Because clearly i do not matter at all or I would not struggle so. I hurt inside almost if not all the...

Emotionally I've been doing so well but for weeks now food has been on my mind all the time. And specifically how I don;t want to eat at all. Of how I like the feeling of starving.

I'm back in this place already. A place where I do not know if I want to live or die. A place of questioning of self hatred. I really don't thike this place very much.

I have been thinking a lot lately and was just wondering what is life worth for you?