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I just want to give up. I've had enough, I can't handel this anymore. I don't know what to do?

I'm not ready you can't be back yet. I'm still too weak.

I'm stronger than I thought. Sure, I've done some REALLY stupid things but I survived and have come out for the better.

I'm sorry I can't see through this haze. How it makes me want to slice my wrists my throat. How this terror makes me want to kill my self, jst end the pain. I really don't know what else to do. :'(...

I love you but I can't like you. You ignore me, practically neglect me. I see you once a year and you tell me we should keep in beter contact. So I try and you still ignore me and I give up then...

I can't believe I actually started to OD but nothing has changed. :'( I still want to kill myself. I'm still terrified and confused. :(

Today, a hero was made.

I hate this, being suicidal all the time and having people not know, not believe or just write me off. Do they really want me to prove it to them? :'(

I don't know what i'm doing any more. I don't know what to do I know what I want is wrong but the pain I'm in. This pain is so overwhelming. :'( :(

These marks I makePace my lifeThe years I hadAnd those to comeNow are all doneI'm here to sayGood- byeI am so sorryFor all the pain I've put you throughBut Nothing lasts foreverSo, my final prayerIs...

How can the sun have finaly risen yet I still desperatly want to kill my self. :'(

The sun actually rose today.

I wish I were doing better. I don't really want to want to kill my self. Yet I feel it is the only solution. :(

I don't want to go on any more. And yet I have no one to tell. Or rather I can't tell anyone. And they wont believe me anyways. But I have a plan and the will to do it.

So I stand hereOnly to be trapped.Searching for a way outOf this black and white world.There before me is a table.There are three objects on itA knife, a mixture of pills and a marker.One I throw...