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I'm scared of my self. Of what I can do. Want to do.

I go to see my counslor today. My first time talking to anyone since I broke down on Monday. Not sure how much she can do but...

I don't know what to do any more? I want to get help but I feel I've run out of options. And I have a plan and am determined to go through to be a nurse but some people don't know if this is the best...

What good is it when your best help line when your suicidal simply sends you home? There's no point in even going any more.

This is weird, I'm having flash backs about an event I don't even know happened. Something must have happened to have flashbacks. Sorry.

Must I go up and down the rest of my life? If so it is goi... :'(

I had a ceili dancing workshop today for 3 hours non stop. It was So much fun. :D We got to do ceili dancing and set dancing. And one of the dances is from where my family is orginally form in...

This is going to be a good day. :)

Having a hard time. Not wanting to live any more.

Not again. :'(

I take strength from the day. I have made it another one. I am ment to be here.

I'm feeling very alone today. And scared. :'(

I made promises to God today that I will make my life better meaning I have to live it. :)

I feel like I don't deserve to live.

Drinking bleach is probably not a good thing. Nor is wanting to drink poisons.